Hate

Hate?? How is the feeling of hate?
Recently, I am extermely hate a person.
How can I meet this kind of people?
In reality world, is it full of this kind of people.
Actually, I didnt hate her when i heard complaint from my friend, but I kena pula..
What fault with me?
Is it trainee cant do things wrongly and cant have any improvement for next time??
Fine, I dont want to angry so much.
Just feel like a clever student, president list or dean list student or local U student can treat other people badly? Nothing I can complain it..-.- what i can say is there will have "balasan" (Paey's quotation:报应 )。
May be perfective people have a weird characteristic.

Now learn how to tolerance to that kind of people...
*Sorry for any offensive words.

Back to Training

It is 2 weeks i back into training again after suffering from Chicken pox..
And now End of week in Cytopathology and Histopathology department..
Learn a lot..
Although there is not test or exam at all, every day i was struggled with question as well as i asked a lot question..(Those people who know me well, they know I always ask A LOT of Question)
My department supervisors taught me a lot..
Sometime I get to question back some question from my supervisors..
I cant answer although it is a SIMPLE question.It's true.It is a SIMPLE question.
I was gotten to "blame" that WHOLE WEEK I STAY at the DEPARTMENT, WHAT I LEARN??
It was hurt when i heard about it..
No matter how, i take it as a lesson and no repeat next time...

Chicken Pox

Last week, I'm off due to chicken pox suffering me..Sunday (12 october 2008)officially announce I suffer from Chicken pox..What can i do?? Rest at home..

I went to industrial training at Hospital Lam Wah Ee for 1 week and take leave for 2 weeks.. I don't know chicken pox attack now is good for me or bad. People said the more older people get chicken pox, the more suffer.


Back to what have i done in 1 week leave. Actually i did nothing. Except sleep and eat. Really few days kena chicken pox, i was like "huh"..I had fever and few pox at my body, neck, and check. They made me itchy and painful. I still can sleep nicely at first few day..Whole day, most of the time, i contribute to sleep. After wake up, eat something and medicine, SLEEP again. It is very sleepy and pening kepala. I don't know it was consequence of medicine or chicken pox. Still remember one night, there was a remarkable time for me. I was high fever plus terrible headache and i forced myself to sleep. I could not sleep at all somemore my mind just think to admit hospital to release my pain and fear. My parents was not at home at that time. Luckilly my brother was in. I asked him bought me a "Kool fever". i sticked at my headfoce. At least, I feel ok but still fever..

After few more days, some people can see online (mean in MSN) in working hour..Ya, I am on leave. Search for some information regard chicken pox. I found something special for me.


"CHICKENPOX is regarded as a rite of passage for every child, but did you know that it can cause serious complications and make you susceptible to secondary infections later as an adult?
Red rashes start popping up all over your child’s body. Within several days, these pimple-like bumps turn into liquid-filled blisters. Your child develops a fever, loses his appetite and becomes increasingly irritable. He is quarantined at home and misses his lessons at preschool.
患水痘的病者一般有發熱，全身不舒服，與感冒發燒不同的是，這種發燒會使人覺得熱。通常嬰幼兒常沒有前驅症狀；年長兒或成人則有發熱頭痛等症狀，通常在1至2天後才出疹。身上出現皮疹是水痘最明顯的癥狀。


The doctor cautions you to make sure your child does not scratch the rash (no matter how horribly itchy it gets) as scratching can cause a bacterial infection of the skin.
In fact, the doctor surprises you when he mentions the possibility of other serious complications such as pneumonia or encephalitis (inflammation of the brain).
嬰兒或兒童生水痘，最令父母感到擔心，因為身上的水皰結痂時會發癢，小孩通常會忍不住去搔癢，當水皰被抓破後就會使皮膚容易受感染，進而肺炎，或血液中毒（敗血症）。
[People always advice me dont to scratch the pox (should call rash )or else it will get scar which cause imperfect skin. The primary reason is.....]



What is chicken pos ??Chickenpox is an infection caused by the varicella-zoster virus. The varicella-zoster virus is extremely contagious and can spread through physical contact or through the air from a sneeze or cough."


I heard some of my friend who same age with havnt suffered from chicken pox. Here is some advice i get from article.

"The only way to prevent being infected with chickenpox is by vaccination. Produced with the weakened varicella-zoster virus, the chickenpox vaccine is usually administered to children between the ages of one and 12, as well as adults and teenagers who have yet to contract chickenpox.
While the vaccine will prevent chickenpox in most children, a small number may still become infected. However, they will get a milder form of the infection, with less severe symptoms and much less skin lesions.
Like all other vaccines, the chickenpox vaccine can have side effects – the most common being redness, pain and swelling at the injection site. Talk to your doctor to find out more about the vaccine."


2 weeks leave cause me have replacement for my industrial training..
Aiiyahh..
[Good]: I wont miss anything will be learn in industrial training
[Bad] : I will late 2 weeks finish my industrial training compare to other >.<


More information about chicken pox, here are the link
http://http://thestar.com.my/health/story.asp? file=/2007/12/23/health/19813661&sec=health (English version)

http://http://health.sinchew-i.com/node/502 (Mandarin version)

Days after final

Days after final exam~~
19/10/08-(Friday) Last paper of final exam..
-After exam, went to Pudu (bought bus ticket back penang)
-Then KLCC trip..Ate Vienna Doughnut: Quite interesting with, bcoz our Nyonya always shouted to me "VIEN--NA"
(PetroScience)*Urgh, due to late to go and PetroScience too large enough, we cant get to see and play each section and game>.<* -Watched series movie 20/10/08 (Saturday) -Cleaned house
-House full of dirt.. (finally clean ady:))
-Ate SPL 's xiao gua Tom Yam (taste like my secondary school canteen's Tom Yam)

21/10/08 (Sunday)
-Kinda tired after cleaning house.
-Wake up late (Lunch in Station One)
-Dinner at Tallipon..(it is my first time,quite good actually..)

22/10/08 (Monday)
-Went Pavillion for movie (Money Not Enough 2), Meal: J.Co Doughnut,Wong Kok (smbody favourite shop"winks")
-Watched series movie

23/10/08 (Tuesday)
-Nothing to do at home.
-Watched series movie again till headache "ohh..kena marah yar.. :@"

24/10/08 (Wednesday)
-Cleaned house
-Went Bentong

25/10/08 (Thursday)
-~~~Bentong~~~Wan Tan Mee, morning market, Kampung Baru Cina.......

26/10/08 (Friday)
-Back to KL

27/10/08 & 28/10/08 (Saturday and Sunday)
-Went for softskill Programme
-Wake up 6:00 am early in the morning and reached home at 8:00pm but really have fun in the process..

29/10/08 (Monday)
-rest day..Since so many days need to wake up early and the next day went to Chi Ji Camp.

30/10/08 & 1/10/08 (Tuesday & Wednesday)
-Chi Ji Camp at Melacca
-Have fun..but a bit boring for certain topic or section of talk
-Get to know friends from KTar and UTAR

2/10/08 (Thursday)
-Back from Camping
-Packing for back penang tomorrow

3/10/08 (Friday)
-back penang: Supposing got good mood but K** Company bus ruined my mood. I bought 9:30am bus, but we got to get the bus around at 11 am and let us sit the 4 seat bus (I bought for 3 seat bus). Quite frustrated.. Bad service.."Urgh..I was really a bad mood when to see those kinda people "

4/10/08 (Saturday)
-As tour guide, bring along to Sungai Jawi, Sungai Bakap, Nibong Tebal, Parit Buntar and the 1 hour pass through 3 states (Penang, Perak, and Kedah) :)
-went Autocity: Starbucks

Quite Weird dee...

Industrial training

Final is just around the corner..
----STRESS--------
Time flies again~~
Went through all the 14 weeks...
After final, 3 months sem break is replaced by INDUSTRIAL TRAINING
What to do??
Since it is OPTIONAL, i can choose not to go..
but i din do like that...
Still, i applied to have industrial training in Hospital Lam Wah Ee in Penang island.
I get approval..
After get to know the detail from the hospital,
I am like .....
"working day Mon-Fri 8.30am-5.00pm,Sat 8.30am-1pm,
report your self on 6/10/08,9am in Lab, bring your own Lab coat."
Saturday need to work??
-.-
No choice..no choice...
That is my decision..
Fact cant be changed anymore..
Only..i accept it..
Think in another way, i can fill my free time (saturday) with useful stuff....
"wink???"

Re：小手牵大手？？

Story is grabbed from nixxie blog. The reason i put this story is to suit one of my blog that i have been posted before.

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, 'Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river.'

The little girl said, 'No, Dad. You hold my hand.
' 'What's the difference?' Asked the puzzled father.
'There's a big difference,' replied the little girl. 'If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.'


In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours... (Anon, 2008) ^^

遇到

歌手：恶作剧之吻 歌曲：遇到

你身上专署的陌生味道

是我确认你存在的目标

不用爱会掌握了知道竟是

我们相隔着一个街角

沉默久了还是可以感到

感觉的到你对我的重要

不会被天黑天亮打扰

你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到

我比谁都更明白你的重要

沉默久了我就决定了

决定了你的手我握了不会放掉

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到

我答应自己不再庸人自扰

因为我要的我自己知道

只要你的肩膀愿让我靠

^^

领悟

21.08.08，我被邀请去慈青主办的“中秋晚会”。
开始，我一直挣扎要不要参与， 不懂会不会闷。
最后，就想去看看怎样呀！毕竟，近期很忙也很压力，就去哪儿解解压。
地点在plaza prima Setapak 的第十楼， 就在我先在住的屋的楼上。

到了那儿，慈青们都很热烈的欢迎我们的到来。
我不是第一次被这种欢迎方式来迎接我的到来。
过后，我们自我介绍。
然后，唱唱歌（是慈济歌还是慈青歌，不懂？）。
唱歌加上手语（满特别）。

过后的环节是“环保”。
这环节让我受益不少。
环保听多了，但要怎样环保呢是个学问。
环保不只是把旧报纸，塑料罐等等收集了把它们拿去回收环保。
原来，我们应该少使用汽车。 这会减少二氧化碳的产生。
吃多少就拿多少。吃的分量少， 我们就拿少。
等等....

接下来的环节是使用回收材料自制灯笼。
大家使出自己的创意。

最后一个环节是观赏《大爱》影片。

经过那晚会，我开始有点领悟。
在短短的两个小时，我能感受无压力的心情。
我的父母是德教会的委员。
就像我的爸爸，假如早放工，他都会德教会看看走走。
可能对他们来说，去哪可能可他们减压和忘掉烦恼。
假如有什么庆典，他们都会很踊跃的参与。
就像每个农历七月，爸爸妈妈每个晚上都会去德教会参师。（不懂什么庆典。）
整整一个月，有时想要找妈妈谈些事都很难找出时间。
有时很讨厌，很讨厌为什么爸爸妈妈都经常管德教会， 把我们都忽列了。
现在懂了他们的作为。
做善事有时是那靠那颗心。
不管多忙，只要那颗心还在，做善事是少不了。

沟通

不懂何时，
口头语言的沟通不在有了，
换来的是无言的沟通的。
什么事都是最后一分钟才知道。
知道的时候也是太迟了。
有时很怀疑，
不懂是怎么一回事。
有时感觉要顺别人意做的话，
是很很难也很辛苦的事。

*想了很久，不懂要不要把心理的话搬出来。
就在无法忘记的情况， 就得发泄了。

Should I??

My mind always get into this question.
Should I tell him what am i thinking about?
Should I tell him anything about my stuff??
Should I ?
and
Should I??
Definately I tell him what happiness in my life..
But...
For the sadness and painfulness..
I always to think twice and think a lot..
Thinking what the result after i tell him..??
What will he do???
And
What can I do??
Normally what he can do, i can easily to get it..
I am a kind of person don't wish to share my painfulness and sadness with other even him..
I prefer to keep it and let me to suffer myself..
As a result, i get into a suffer myself situition.

At beginning of journey, one of my hometown best friend adviced me...
Try to tell him whatever your thinking..
Let him know what you want and what you think..
I did..I did..
but I found that there is not different after i tell him and NOt telling him..
Desperate....>.<

Hate my life now totolly!!!
Tests and Stomach Ache attack and trouble my life...

想太多 >.<

Really time flied..


2 months past...


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开始...


想太多的日子开始...
想了太多，自己变得不快乐。
逼自己不去想，但情况变得更糟糕。
反而自己想得更加更加多。
是怀疑吗？？
是信心吗？？
这到底是什么一回事?

很想说“对不起”。
P/s: 不要在事情过后才来后悔和道歉。
就在事情前不做让你后悔和道歉。

小手牵大手

Word of my Feeling

When days past by, we can see each other clearly.
That is a point quarrel come toward.
As our Management tutor said: For Couple, it should have quarrel.
I am totally agree with it.
Recently, I don't know what wrong with me.
Everything that i see, I feel not comfortable with it.
What he did, I have some comment on it.
I think the problem come from me.
Stress again attack me. >.<
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For me, quarrel is none stop happened in my life.
It causes my life from a flat mode to become a flactuate mode.
It is a wonderful life.
So everyday, it is not a same..
Always, I try to find those new things.
Find how to be a new..
Sound like i "hate old and like new" (喜新厌旧)
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Just now, i read one of my friend's blog.
He said he found that many people read his blog and he start to write his blog based on the reader.
For him, blogging is not longer a place for him to shout out what he want to say.
I also got such feeling.
Not neccessary all my thinking can be posted on it.
Sometime, after i blog, I dont know what is my purpose of post my blog.
It is untill i need to write a title for it.
I am like what am i write.

爱没有重量，爱不是负担，而是一种喜悦的关怀和无求的付出。

感觉

是感觉吗？

感觉对了吗？

感觉是个什么东西？

为什么是感觉呢？

怎样的感觉才是对的呢？

First~~

First ~~
Plaza Prima Setapak
Time Square
KFC
Old Town
Eye On Malaysia
男人女人


男人女人】歌词
(女)爱爱爱爱了几回 也明白其中滋味 付出的从来不会等於收回 我却还在 等待著 谁能出现
(男)伤伤伤伤了几回 也曾经为爱憔悴 爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈 我却还是 学不会 狠心对谁
(女)男人男人 多希望 你是好人 多希望用你的真 让我不必再心疼
(男)女人女人 我答应 做个好人 我答应用我一生 来换你的快乐一生
(女)爱爱爱爱了几回 也明白其中滋味 付出的从来不会等於收回 我却还在 等待著 谁能出现
(男)伤伤伤伤了几回 也曾经为爱憔悴 爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
(合)我却还是 学不会 狠心对谁
(男)女人女人 我答应 做个好人 我答应用我一生 来换你的快乐一生
(女)男人男人 多希望 你是好人 多希望用你的真 让我不必再心疼
(男)女人女人 我答应 做个好人
(女)不会再让我心疼~(男)不会再让你心疼~
(合)一等在等 你就是我等的那个人
(女)男人男人 (男)女人女人
(合)多麼希望你是对的人

This song, I heard it during the FES Asian Culture Society was promoting their event for the Cultural Night. They presented this song in the cafeteria. When i passed by cafeteria, I heard the lyric quite meaningful and nice to hear.. After few days, he sent me this song. However i saw the title of song quite "simple"..(in other word, can say is "too traditional")..After he explained to me, I only realized that it is the song i want to find it before.. ^^

夜深人静....

无可否认，在夜深人静，我开始烦和担心。

上个星期，连续的考试跟着来。

有点喘不过气来。

下个星期，考试的成绩也是连续的跟着来。

他和她

一个月，

说长不长说短不短，

让我们俩经历过。

风风雨雨....

我们经历了。

感谢一直以来的关怀。

感谢一直以来的帮忙。

感谢一直以来的安慰。

感谢一直以来得快乐。

不好意思...

经常带来的麻烦。

经常带来的痛苦。

经常带来的紧张。

经常带来的伤心。

未来的日子还长。

珍惜现在.....

:)

我会很乖的。

I will be a good girl dee..

I am always scolded by my mum and him..

hehehe..

Who asked me late to sleep..???

Late to sleep is not a main problem..

The main problem is I sleep late and cause I sick and get fever..

The pressure and stress life in Year 2 Sem 1 is still on..

At least nowadays my stress and pressure are reduced half.. and shared by another one.. :D

What I always say : How suffer and hard life, i have been before..

So i must be a good good girl..They will not have reason to scolde me lor..hehehe :P

毒

我发现我中了毒。

这种毒就常在他要回家乡前产生的。

害怕，心情五杂六味。。

就连作梦也被惊醒了。

无法形容的心情。

“虽然留点空间不见面，

反而能够拉紧彼此的心。”

Mungkin Bila~~

Mungkin bila Nanti, Kita dapat jumpa lagi...
现是各分东西的时机。
中六的朋友，再见了。
不知何时我们能在见面了。
前天，收到一个我和他有之前有误会的朋友的讯息。
我心里觉得有点安慰些。
讯息是关于他要离开而去个陌生的地方读书。
至少他有心的把讯息传给我。
再见咯！！

要我怎么样？？

不想的事情已经发生了。
我不懂应该怎样面对？？
很想再次的痛哭一场，但不想再让他看见我痛苦的样子。
很想麻醉自己不让自己再去想。
但忙碌和压力的生活不得让我不去想。
对，我应该面对事实。
但事实都是很残忍的。
想要得到我想分享我的快乐的人的认同，但答案偏偏不是我想要的。
我真的很想.....
很想证实我们，
发现我是脆弱的。
开始有点崩溃......

一个星期

一个星期就这样的过了。
平平淡淡的日子也开始了吵吵闹闹和打打骂骂的日子。
依赖慢慢变成了习惯。
顿时的改变，我无法适应。
无法掩饰自己的情感。
再次的哭了。
第一次感受到又哭又笑的感觉。
很难受！！
疯疯癫癫地他弄得我懂要哭还是要笑。
一个星期的时间，
我开始更加更加得注意饮食。
吃的次数也开始的变多。
实现了想要去的地方，想要吃的东西，想要做想要做的东西。
忘了自己不再是一个人。
有时会想为什么：为什么要打给他，为什么要等他...等等

终于要认真地重新的.......。
功课还是我担心的..... >.<

笨蛋

笨蛋-林俊杰&金莎歌词


笨蛋(林俊杰/金莎)
很多时候我因为怕受伤，所以就选择先放弃。我更因为我太爱自由，所以明明渴望爱情，却依然不知怎样让别人进入我的世界。
难道，我不能给你百分百的信心吗？你知道，我一直有多在乎你。
我珍惜这份安全感，却担心他的牺牲。所以每天的感觉还是孤独的。我还是需要一个人，一个人想一想。

冰箱结霜 咖啡滚烫 煮不好 最简单的早餐......
我的生活 是一团混乱 维持单身 感觉茫然......
喜不喜欢 习不习惯 我总是 说不出个答案......
一个人来 又一个人往 怎么让他 流连忘返......

我不想当笨蛋 我在墙上写满渴望......
我可以大哭一场 房间还是空空荡荡......
我绝对不逞强 该属于我任其自然......
可是我也要安全感..在某个适当程度的主张......
纵然是了解眼光 也是温暖

这段日子你真的过的好吗？
没有你的早晨，加了糖的咖啡，也是苦的。
当时我尊重你的要求，所以我离开。但，这段日子你不开心，
所以我就回来了。
也许，我连自己要什么我也不知道。我一个人，游游荡荡。
自由久了，也没有了目标。梦里醒来，发现墙上已经不自觉写满了你的名字。
单身，是茫然。恋爱，也彷徨。我明白，所以我用时间去证明了这颗心。不会因为你曾经的放弃而改变。

每个早上 都想赖床 没有梦 是最让人沮丧......
我的眼睛 盯着天花板 也跑不出 任何对象......
我不想当笨蛋 我在墙上写满渴望......
我可以大哭一场 房间还是空空荡荡......
我绝对不逞强 该属于我任其自然......
可是我也要安全感..在某个适当程度的主张......
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

难道我真的是个笨蛋？一直错过已经在身边的幸福。
我们只是用时间找到了我们需要什么。让我们认识了自己，也肯定了对方。
因为你，让我知道真正的幸福是什么。

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女孩别哭

女孩别哭。

“女孩别哭，有什么难过对我说；

女孩别哭，我不愿看见你泪流”

我不再想要哭了。

第一次，在他的面前哭。

也就在当儿开始了我们的路程。

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谢谢一直以来的陪伴。

很想时间就停在此刻。

开始的我，很害怕无法面对他和将来。

希望一切都是的那么顺利~~~

See around and Appreriate what we ALREAD have;

than to sign on what MAY have-

* Cant deny that girl's weakness is EAR..

Current Status

Life is full of uncertainty and unexpected..
It is really happened on me..
I dont know why and when it is happened..
The feeling is just like that..
Need to appreciate it a lot..:)
Past: In the wrong time meet with right person.
Current: In the right time meet with right person...??
I really hope so..
Phobia..Hope i can get rid it..

端午节

明天就是端午节。














想要吃粽子....但没得吃。


今年已是第二年没有度过端午节吃粽子的日子了。


其实在前几年的端午节没有特别的庆祝。


虽然赛龙舟年年都有在槟城举办，但我还是没有亲自体验现场的感觉。

开始了....

开始了想家了。

前镇子，太忙了。没有时间让我喘下来。

昨天晚上，为了一份实验报告。通宵到了三点。

是我第一次搞到那么晚。

有时发现，我静下来就开始胡适乱想。

发白日梦会好过胡适乱想。

弄得好像很多事情在我脑海里。

渐渐地，有点喘不过来。

很想找个庇护所。

常被看为“温室里的小花”的我，很里所当然那个地方会是爸爸妈妈那里。

〈想见你〉〈爸爸妈妈〉......

近来如何？

真的搞不懂最近的心情。
发疯就发疯，静的时候就开始闹情绪。
不想寻找真正的原因。
有时不懂为什么，自己提不起精力来和别人吵吵闹闹。
很感觉不像我的作风。
其实减少和别人吵吵闹闹是件好事。
天生不适合和别人怄气，但还是爱那么做。
开始学习除去暴躁脾气...
有点怀疑自己的能力。

中学的记忆

沉静下来..开始对中学时代有点怀念。
经常都在班上闹事。哈哈哈哈。。

虽然是办公室和校长室的常客，但不致以说是坏孩子。

成为办公室和校长室的常客，原因是我们的老师有的是副校长等等。。

这是中五拍的班照。（2005）

还记得班主任曾经对我说过的一句话。

他对我说：“淑雯，是全班里最好欺负的一个。你作弄她，她还会笑笑回应你。”

唉呀，什么呀！！原来我在老师的眼中是那样的。

哈哈..其实班主任有时不时地被我欺负。经常向他取他座上的东西，从金鱼到鱼缸...

他也任我拿。平常没事做就跑到老师的座位八卦。

免不了，遇到课业的压力和老师班上的压力，那里是我的庇护所。*有点想念那样的日子*

它也是spot check 隐藏违经品处。

友谊部分：

*2005 同学会。

人数最齐的一年！ =）

*2006 同学会

>.< 那次的同学会，我无法出席。

*2007 同学会

=）还是那么搞笑的他们。

2008 呢？？

已主办了。

地点：Mc D..

主办了后，得到很多回音。

是好事还是坏事呢？？

那些回音都是反面的。。

结果，我们的关系开始有点僵硬了。

主办当局是包括了我。

2009，还有希望的再举办吗??

终于！！

终于我能上网了。还不习新电脑的功能。也很讨厌它，因为我须自己install programme。前一个电脑有我哥哥帮我弄好一切一切的programme。虽然他帮我弄了，说实在的，我不懂要怎样用，用来做什么。我这种粗鲁人，就算了吧！！就希望一切都很好。

胃痛了一个晚上，还以为自己可以迟醒多一点。 那里知道还是逃不过迟睡的“惩罚”！！最后的我还是关机的继续的睡。。。 哈哈哈！！

昨天晚上，不能睡。所以开陈颖见的《熬夜》边听边打部落格。

在假期时，疯狂的寻找陈颖见的《熬夜》。终于让我找到了。那首歌的确是首很久的歌。
疯狂的寻找它的原因是要寻找当年的回忆。

“一起熬夜，一起准备明天的测验”
是我“明天的测验”，而不是我们“明天的测验”
一直以来不被允许熬夜的。很大的原因是自己的体力。但我偏喜欢跟人家做反。。（这是叛逆的一种）哈哈..没有呀！！ 我也明白别人对我的苦心。谁叫我一至做些不放心的事。其实我也不想的啊！！可能我的原则是要把一切都作到最好。虽然如此，那样做有时真的很累。

不想再写了。*看着没有多功能的电脑，开始不想理它了*

很潇洒的辅导别人别担心太多，实际上的自己却在担心。

Holiday now..
Is that good for me??
I din feel so..
My dekstop got big problem and my printer got problem too due to paper jam..
What the "......"??
So cham yarr...
Industrial training also one of headache thg i need to..
Conclude that, i have many things to do in my sem break..
I am bored at all..at Setapak
Not internet and computer after exam..*As I am using my housemate pc*
I bec Pg 2molo..
Dont think so much..
Troublesome!!!!!!!
Moodless!!
很潇洒的辅导别人别担心太多，实际上的自己却在担心。

now

Aiyaaah..
My pc got problem..
Now is no internet and no computer life..
Others said: is good for me to concentrate for my Final Exam..
hehehe..ya...may be but i have no ENTERTAINMENT at all arr..
Ok lah..i wanna do my important stuff

为什么会那样呢？

很苦恼，有点崩溃。
听了他们所跟我讲的话，前后有点矛盾。
开始怀疑他们讲的话的真实性。
原本的他们就是那样的吗？？
我想是吧！！
很不想会是那样。。
虽然认识的时间并不长。
忍受不了他们！！

苦读的我。

这几天我都很辛苦。。
有点压力但不懂压力是从哪里呀？？
开始患上嗜食症。
一直很想吃东西。。
并且又患上了嗜睡症。。
看书看每两下就想睡了。
救命啊！！
这样下去还得了吗？？
我知道再苦的日子，我都熬过了。
现在的我应该继续加油。。
就像我的辅导朋友所说的：我是vien呀！！
没什么事难不了我。
我就应该撑下去。。

Hero

Mariah Carey-Hero

There's a hero

If you look inside your heart

You don't have to be afraid

of what you are

There's an answer

If you reach into your soul

And sorrow that you know

Will melt away

And then a hero comes along

And you cast your FEARS aside

And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

It's a long road

When you face the world alone

No one reaches out a hand

For you to hold

You can find Love

If you search within yourself

and the emptiness you felt

will disappear

?!?!?!?!??!

Hate!!!!!!
Stupid AniMAls..
SO many Struture..
Some more so many phylum, subphylum pula and CLASSESSSSSSSS...
Digusting when see the photo...
STupid when study arr.......
Ecology pula..
HaTE@@..
The date near to the test..
the more i hate them!!!
?!?!??!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

last week of sem 2

The last week of Sem 2..
It is a heart attack week for me.
The reason is many coursework marks, we will get to know ..
Sad..
Terrible..
and Worry..
2 more weeks, the final exam is coming.
Some more, our biodiversity and concept of ecology test 2 and lab test 2 fall on this friday.
Aiyyah, last day of week 14...
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ok yar..stop here..
Scare and scare..
be calm and calm..
Looking forward to 2nd May which is the last day of final exam..
and i am going to back penang lor..
hahahhahaha
My 2nd eldest brother owe me 1 meal (actually is my request dee..)
Just celebrate his achievement mah..
Gambateh..

激励话

遇到困难当磨练，

面对问题当考验。

天气。

不懂自己在搞什么。。
可能是搞清楚自己想要的东西了吧。。
现在的我慢慢的转回了晴天。
时间。。真的我需要的是它。
和妈妈通了20分钟的电话，我发现我得到了我要的答案了。
我。。真得有点想太多。
希望我的天空一直还会是晴天的。
原来下雨天的气候不是太适合我了。

事实

如何把“事实”成了习惯？？
面临了太多事实。。
一连三得接着下来。。
很喘。。
透不过气来。。
我不想，一直都不想。。
近来，我一直做我不想做的事情。。
来到新的环境，使得我的情绪不稳定。
开始后悔了选择这新的环境。
开始担心床的摆设，书桌的位置。
开始担心做了一些会让别人感到不高兴或不满的事..
第一天开始新环境的我，竟然无法坐定和专心。
对我来说，舒服和轻松的生活习惯最重要。
现在的我很想我的家人。应该说我想家了，而是很渴望那种感觉。
但我很怕听到妈妈的声音。很怕再次让她听到另一端的我哭泣的声音。

Sob-ing....

Just finished my math test 2..
Supposingly i should happy..
But my status now is totally opposite..
I really SAD and SAD..
The feeling now pain than STOMACH-ACHE or gastric..
---Crying------
I really dont wish ..dont wish..
Math for me is most important subject..
I dont give high expectation in my Biology and english language,
because i Know how i study hard..is the same,but i still struggle to study..
Only this sem has math subject can help me in my result..
How i know...I really hate hate hate..
My mum told me before if i can't continue my study in UTAR , i can study in other U..
I know that are the words to console me..
But for me, is a stress!!
I dont want ...
------crying---------
I know stress in study is just a minor stuff compare to working in reality world...
I know i shouldn't cry..
It will harm myself...
Try to hidden my feeling..But i cant hidden my feeling..
It is a torturing ways...

week 11

Today is friday of week 11..
It is almost end of the week 11..
Done 2 presentation but...
i still have 2 test .They are properties of Matter (Chemistry) and Ancillary Statistic(Math) ..
Properties of Matter test was postponed from week 10 to week 11 and then now from saturday of week 12 postponed to MONDAY of week 12..What the "tut"..Really stupid..
I really no enough time to prepare yar..
Today lecturer just changed the time to MONDAY..
Tomorrow i still need to go to become helper of 19th Intervarsity Biochemistry Seminar..
I think it is really a tiring job dee..
It is located in PJ campus dee..
6:30am need to arrive at Setapak campus SA block..
Wat?? so early...
Next week, i am going to move and also change my lifestyle also..
A bit worry about...
Hope everything will be fine..

Homesick!!---Try to forget it...

Struggling and suffering..
See my brother at hometown and i still need to crack my head for my presentations.
Start to regret...
Last time, my parents and grandpa asked me to study in MMU in order to they can take care of me..
If i study in MMU, i will have same holiday like them so ..i would feel any homesick when he back hometown...

Torturing..
Now what i can do...
Except crying...I really dont know what can i do..
Is stupid way to release tension..

first time---....-----

My first time :
To play Manjung (when the time Ms Leong and Mr Chia came to visit)
To play snooker (if my parents know their daughter went to play snooker, i dont know what is their reaction.)
Got such loaded work to do but still went to play snooker (the place in my perception that naughty and ganster only will go)
*Should I thanks Gandpa, uncle n fisherman gave me chance to learn snooker (pool) ???
Should I??*

Dont know next time, i back penang and request for playing manjung and snooker.
Couldn't imagine how my family response..
I think still ok gua..
Dont know arr..

I didn't do any bad thing yar..
As long as i still can arrange the time for studying, it is enough..
This few week, it is really a full of stress and tension week..
2 presentations (those are my Achilles heel.) and 1 properties of Matter the only test.

is time to sleep but cant sleep because i still cant find the stupid oil palm trees.
Haaiiz...supposingly i can get the photos without search thru Google image search..
How i know my brother copy wrong photos for me..
Those pictures that he copied for me, are the machine for production of palm oil and fibre..
I dont want to request more..
Since he just reached penang, i required him to help me go to the company to copy the photos..
Pity him..no sleep whole night due to whole night at bus..

Ya hor..I am trying to upload my birthday video at here...But failed..
because i need to upload to Youtube first then only copy the link at here..
However, i dont want my shameful video spread to others..
Argh...

Just feel bored and unsatisfy

Get lost and get lost..
Feel unhappy with what face now..
Contrast thinking between internal and external..
Hope everything will be fine ..

Just come and say hi

Starting a new..
Everything ll be memory after a long time..
Memory fOr me..--Vien--