Sunday, March 30, 2008

天气。

不懂自己在搞什么。。
可能是搞清楚自己想要的东西了吧。。
现在的我慢慢的转回了晴天。
时间。。真的我需要的是它。
和妈妈通了20分钟的电话,我发现我得到了我要的答案了。
我。。真得有点想太多。
希望我的天空一直还会是晴天的。
原来下雨天的气候不是太适合我了。

事实

如何把“事实”成了习惯??
面临了太多事实。。
一连三得接着下来。。
很喘。。
透不过气来。。
我不想,一直都不想。。
近来,我一直做我不想做的事情。。
来到新的环境,使得我的情绪不稳定。
开始后悔了选择这新的环境。
开始担心床的摆设,书桌的位置。
开始担心做了一些会让别人感到不高兴或不满的事..
第一天开始新环境的我,竟然无法坐定和专心。
对我来说,舒服和轻松的生活习惯最重要。
现在的我很想我的家人。应该说我想家了,而是很渴望那种感觉。
但我很怕听到妈妈的声音。很怕再次让她听到另一端的我哭泣的声音。

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Sob-ing....

Just finished my math test 2..
Supposingly i should happy..
But my status now is totally opposite..
I really SAD and SAD..
The feeling now pain than STOMACH-ACHE or gastric..
---Crying------
I really dont wish ..dont wish..
Math for me is most important subject..
I dont give high expectation in my Biology and english language,
because i Know how i study hard..is the same,but i still struggle to study..
Only this sem has math subject can help me in my result..
How i know...I really hate hate hate..
My mum told me before if i can't continue my study in UTAR , i can study in other U..
I know that are the words to console me..
But for me, is a stress!!
I dont want ...
------crying---------
I know stress in study is just a minor stuff compare to working in reality world...
I know i shouldn't cry..
It will harm myself...
Try to hidden my feeling..But i cant hidden my feeling..
It is a torturing ways...

Friday, March 21, 2008

week 11

Today is friday of week 11..
It is almost end of the week 11..
Done 2 presentation but...
i still have 2 test .They are properties of Matter (Chemistry) and Ancillary Statistic(Math) ..
Properties of Matter test was postponed from week 10 to week 11 and then now from saturday of week 12 postponed to MONDAY of week 12..What the "tut"..Really stupid..
I really no enough time to prepare yar..
Today lecturer just changed the time to MONDAY..
Tomorrow i still need to go to become helper of 19th Intervarsity Biochemistry Seminar..
I think it is really a tiring job dee..
It is located in PJ campus dee..
6:30am need to arrive at Setapak campus SA block..
Wat?? so early...
Next week, i am going to move and also change my lifestyle also..
A bit worry about...
Hope everything will be fine..

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Homesick!!---Try to forget it...

Struggling and suffering..
See my brother at hometown and i still need to crack my head for my presentations.
Start to regret...
Last time, my parents and grandpa asked me to study in MMU in order to they can take care of me..
If i study in MMU, i will have same holiday like them so ..i would feel any homesick when he back hometown...

Torturing..
Now what i can do...
Except crying...I really dont know what can i do..
Is stupid way to release tension..

first time---....-----

My first time :
To play Manjung (when the time Ms Leong and Mr Chia came to visit)
To play snooker (if my parents know their daughter went to play snooker, i dont know what is their reaction.)
Got such loaded work to do but still went to play snooker (the place in my perception that naughty and ganster only will go)
*Should I thanks Gandpa, uncle n fisherman gave me chance to learn snooker (pool) ???
Should I??*

Dont know next time, i back penang and request for playing manjung and snooker.
Couldn't imagine how my family response..
I think still ok gua..
Dont know arr..

I didn't do any bad thing yar..
As long as i still can arrange the time for studying, it is enough..
This few week, it is really a full of stress and tension week..
2 presentations (those are my Achilles heel.) and 1 properties of Matter the only test.

is time to sleep but cant sleep because i still cant find the stupid oil palm trees.
Haaiiz...supposingly i can get the photos without search thru Google image search..
How i know my brother copy wrong photos for me..
Those pictures that he copied for me, are the machine for production of palm oil and fibre..
I dont want to request more..
Since he just reached penang, i required him to help me go to the company to copy the photos..
Pity him..no sleep whole night due to whole night at bus..

Ya hor..I am trying to upload my birthday video at here...But failed..
because i need to upload to Youtube first then only copy the link at here..
However, i dont want my shameful video spread to others..
Argh...

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Just feel bored and unsatisfy

Get lost and get lost..
Feel unhappy with what face now..
Contrast thinking between internal and external..
Hope everything will be fine ..