Friday, July 31, 2009

I am emo again.



I am emo again.


and I am confused as well.


Previously, i planned back penang this weekend due to next week, there is no test.


My plan suddenly changed because no one can take me when i reached Juru Tol (As you know, my place dont have a bus-station-like-place, so i need to take bus from pudu to Penang island or Butterworth and stop at Juru Tol.)





My dad and my eldest brothers are not at home. They went outstation... :(








p/s: Everyday thing MUST do is check mail. Waiting my FYP supervisor send me the consultation time in order to meet her..





pp/s: The relationship can cause someone to become more burden and headache. The problem come from both side's parents and the couple's feeling.

Friday, July 24, 2009

I hate myself

I hate myself being such CRYBABY.
When i am stress, i tend to cry?!
When i face difficulty, i tend to cry too?!
(Is that a good excuse?? Definitely NO)

I dont want what gene is built inside my body..Cause me being crybaby..
I dont like myself being like this.
It is seem like i am a weak and weak person..
Cant take any risk, any difficulty..
I dont like others treating me so..

Because of crybaby, i cause other people especially my beloved (parents and him) worry..(oh..no.I dont want!!)
I like being any difficulty i can keep it in my inner side but not just cry out in term of tearss..

Because of this characteristic, my ambition is changed and changed..
Last time, i want to be doctor, BUT i scare STRESS.
I want to study ACCA (Association of Chartered Certified Accountants) and other accounting professional study, again, I scare STRESS.

But you will wonder, studying biotechnology is not stress??
Sure, stress of course. (If not, i will not become crybaby in this few year lar)
I choose biotechnology just because i enjoy to do research. That's it.=)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

one month summary

Haha..Looked back the lastest blog i have been posted. It was around 1 month ago..
The reason why i ignore my blog (Actually not really ignore, every day come and visit it just click my friends updated blog in the friend list. That's it. ): Mainly Due to RAT (want to know what short form refer to kindly go to visit biotechnology's blog ) =)

Too many want to blog about:
1. Co-curiculum

After 1 year being treasurer of First Aid Society, i really learnt a lot. Although there was not many major events were organized, it was still spent more time on it. Shame to say, i am not the most contributor for those events.

Finally the time came to Annual General Meeting (AGM) on 1st July 2009, treasurer post have to pass on to our next generation. From that moment, our committes were free from struggling and suffering in activities. It is nice. However, that time, i did not really free from it. I had to prepare Expenditure and Income statement. For me, preparing Expenditure and Income Statement, it is not difficulty and time consuming tasks (due to i got the format in hand and did it several time before and kind DSA officer willing to help me). But the statement without IMPORTANT RECEIPT how am i going to complete it within 2 days time after AGM. GOSH! I was really frustrated. Requested receipt for 1 weeks or more, finally i got it. (Thanks for those helping me got the receipt). This week, i got First Aid Society advisor signature, my job was finally done. *Fooohuuu*


2. FYP
Being Final year Biotechnology student , Final Year Project (FYP) cant escape with. Last few weeks, we were requested choose our FYP title. Last week, the candidate of FYP title list was out. I am selected. The reason i choose the title is due to the remark was stated in title: "Have strong interest and passion in natural product research and cell culture technique.". Frankly i say, other people might choose the FYP title based on interested in the particular title or particular lecturer, but i choose the title based on remarks. (haha, something wrong with me hur..)

Hope i can do it.
*Heard from senior: ATC is the most most "interesting " lab in UTAR."Cry...sob"* Pray hard!

*Since both of us choose different title as well as different lecturer for our FYP, free time for us less and less. Seem like no more shopping after this..
He is tortured by his supervisor's master student. Pity~

3. RAT
From week 7, every week, there is 1 test. It havnt included with lab reports and Assignments.
It is like "kill us a bit and a bit"...>.<



Yesterday right after Phytochemistry test, I was falling sick. I got feeling to vomit. In the bus on the way back home, the feeling became stronger and stronger. Nearly, i vomit out. That time if i really vomit out, i dont know how the bus driver is going to kill me. He is super duper hygiene people.Finally i vomitted out after i down from bus. I slept for 3 to 4 hours, then woke up to have dinner. Too bad, while waiting to the food coming, feeling of vomit came again...No choice, we had to tabao. That moment, I was really tortured. No appetite at all. But have to eat some because I suddenly remind doctor told me, if my stomach is empty for too long, feeling of vomit will come to attack me plus i got gastric. The condition become worst. I ate some spaghetti, the feeling come again and again..and my eye was pain..I laid on the bed with suffering cant do anything.. Luckily, he can help me to bancuh oat drink for me. After drinking oat drink, the feeling was better. ^^