雨中带文

不懂；不晓；不明了。

2011-09-07T22:04:00.002+08:00

这一路走来，我走得很辛苦。
总觉得找不到解决的答案。

没人懂我感受和处境。
为什么要那么多约束？
难道给与自由是件难的事情？

总觉得旅行未必是开心的事。
现在的我很不开心。

习惯了吗？

2011-08-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

习惯了这里生活的一切，但我却是习惯不了一个人孤独。

期盼一个拥抱和一个辽阔的肩膀来安抚心中的不安和不满。

不懂为什么开始喜欢一个人的感觉。不喜欢合群的感觉。

却有我行我素的行动。

心中有很多悲伤但无法表达。

写在面子书却被不必要的人搅和。

知道朋友的关心但不敢打扰她们。

一直告诉我自己我会很好的，但实际上我却是很不好。

工作的压力成了推动力。
同事之间的关系成了催化力。

心中的寂寞孤单和无奈当遇上那俩力量就酝酿了痛苦和痛恨自己。

--1:11am--

2011-06-19T00:29:00.002+08:00

It is my first time i stil awake at this moment after this 2-3 months.

Definitely, i m the person who cant burn midnight oil. in the other word, i need to sleep preferably before 12pm.

Awake at this moment, it make me miss the moment i burn midnight oil with my roommate. We stayed til late for assignment, reports...

Miss the time together with my roommates and housemates. Had fun with them.

Miss the time:

-We gossip together in the room.

-We had steamboat together after first year second sem final exam

-We had shopping together after first year first sem final exam

-We had dinner together every day.

-We celebrated birthday together.

When can have chance to meet them? FK and OS convo??

Recently, i am emo.

When work, i foresee my holiday.

When in home looking back those photos, i miss my uni-mates and ex-house mates and roommates.

They are so wonderful.

Studying is much more better than working.

People surround will be angel.

The week

2011-05-08T23:15:00.002+08:00

Weather today is extremely hot.....Our earth is sick now!

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Sometime i am struggle what should I talk and how should i talk.
In the internet world, anything we type or say it out, it will be harm to us.
So it always make me to think twice before i express my feeling in the space.

The power of media is out of my expectation.
I experienced it before.
For the incident about me, i dont know it but other people know.
However, i get to know when other people told me. Funny hia.. >.<

So think twice before posted anything included video if you dont wish people create your story based on your posting.

Hmmm.. back to topic.
I had an unpleasant and unfavorable week.
Another project was loaded my job list and problem occured between house owner and me.

They definetely stress me out.
and my tears were not being controlled at that moment.

Luckilly there is a room with less people or nobody, i can have my calm period.
While working, i sang song and sit silently with blank brain.
Yesh, my stress was away from me by doing those thing.
My mood was cheer up and able to talk to people surrounding me.

"Believer in yourself, combat stress and problem and win them.
You are the director and script writer of your life.
Everything is in your power."

Thanks for his word. So sweet and powerful. =)

Another quote that shocked and repeated it my mind.
" Say what people want to hear but not Say what you want to say."

~~Cheers~~

Going to have my 3rd month.

2011-05-03T21:23:00.003+08:00

It is the 3rd month i m there. In other word, i am going to get confirmation soon.

It is not a good thing tho as i need to treat my working performance seriously.

No matter how, let me to talk a bit about feeling toward this institute and the people there.

The task responsibilities are tough as i expect. Need many lucks and miracle to get the task done. Til now, i only have the 1 over 10 luck. I need more miracle indeed.

The people there treat me nicely. Appreciate what they done to me.

They teach me, guide me in my project. even help me in carry heavy fabric and chemical.

If there is no them, i dont know how long i can sustain in the tough job environment.

The task is going to become more and more load. It like i have 2 or 3 subjects assignments run simulteously. Can i handle it?

Music can make me have a good flow in writing and working. "Thinking:" is it influence the productivity? >.<

~ =p ~

First post in 2011

2011-05-02T01:12:00.002+08:00

This is my first post in 2011... oooopsss.. it is May in month.

<3 the font type of blog.

Hope it can force me to have more post.. =)

Stay Tune. :p

Why i din reject people.

2010-12-06T15:56:00.003+08:00

I found that why i dont like to reject people?

because after i reject people, i can feel guilty.

That is feeling today..

I feel guilty and unscure.

What will be the next i will get?

Huuuuuuoooo....

*fly*~~

Obstacle Life

2010-11-18T14:42:00.004+08:00

I am here again.

This blog is quite pity to have a writer like me.

I dont really wish to bother this blog.

But i found that when i face problems, i found that here is a place for me to release my feeling.

Quite moody this few weeks.

It was started from the day i knew incident that i dont really can accept it.

The reason is the incident disturb my future plan!!

After this incident, i find out many things change.

I need to face it and i need to cope with it.

The problem need to solve in better way which either party will get hurt.

This incident let me know no matter how i hate the person or the environment or things, i must face it.

Try to think that, you hate a person the way he/she do, but you stil need to face it with unwillingly. It is due to relationship chain. Outside world is not simple as you think. You dont know who is your next employer, who is you next colleague and so on.

Please fast fast solve the problem and hope time fly faster abit. It is quite torture waiting the day is coming with unknow consequence.

I should remain what i have now or change it?

What is the consequence? Nobody will know.

I hope what i do is to minimize hurt and lose that each party will get.

And i did just to help each other.

Hope you and you and you and you and you..... can hear me. :'(

Quote get from my friend:

Life give us many ways to choose but it wont give us know how are their consequence.

生活，总是给我们许多条路选择，却不会告诉我们前方的结果。

How to define?

2010-09-27T17:07:00.003+08:00

Long time i din update my blog here.. The main reason is i m lazy and the minor reason is i think that my blog 's comment post was hacked. Finally settle it.

Feel to share something in my mind after listen to SodaGreen's 《十年一刻》。可能无数眼泪在夜晚尝了又尝，可是换来成长，可是换来希望。

Study hard to achieve good result and hope can get good work and future. How do we define a good work and future? A good work with high paid?? A good work with bright future? How we know a work can come to a bright future? I doubt it.

Point of Burden

2009-12-21T22:02:00.004+08:00

It comes to end of december as well as end of year 2009.

The burden become more and more as well as stress..

Today i though would be a happy day for me...due to he come back
but end up terrible bad day for me..

Culturing 2 cell lines (Liver cancer cell and Gastric disease carcinoma cell) burden me a lot and bring more stress and tiredness ..
Public holiday and weekend are not rest day for me anymore.
I celebrate my holiday with my cells at lab..
Actually i m quite enjoy doing lab work during public holiday and weekend instead of week day.
The queitness and less people environment let me feel much more relax..

However, public holiday and weekend, there are less transport to and from school..
It brings inconvenient for me..
What to do? I have not my own transport.
That is a point of BURDEN.

Another point of burden is HIM.
I hope i could finish up for culturing 1 cell line (liver cancer cell). But public holiday and festival season now stop me from doing so..
I want to go lab during public holiday and i need him..
but he is always MIA.
What to do?
Struggling for 2 or 3 days..
I dont know what can i do.
I try to do not accept any invitation but it bring danger for me..
Because i need to go and back alone by public transport in so-called danger area..

I HATE!!!!

HepG2 cancer cell line morphology~ (Liver cancer cell)~

*The shining membrane cell is healthy cell.~^^

Confuse!

2009-11-26T19:17:00.004+08:00

Confuse of a day..

I got a new cell line last 2 days. I checked the cell line characteristic through ATCC website and found out it is suspension cell line. Mean that i do no need to use Phosphate Buffer Sulfate (PBS) to wash the cell line and typsin to typsinize the cell when i subculture.

How I know, today my senior told me, although the cell line is suspension but it has anchorage cell line characteristic . (Har..!!)..Because last few sem, FYP senior cultured that kind of cell line after 1 week and found that there is cell attach at the bottom of flask...

It make me confuse..

The new cell line i need to culture is SNU 1.

It is gastric carcinoma. (Why so gam d?? Last time, i suffered from gastic badly...Now in the control state to prevent gastric come to attack..)

More information about SNU 1 refer to http://www.atcc.org/ATCCAdvancedCatalogSearch/ProductDetails/tabid/452/Default.aspx?ATCCNum=CRL-5971&Template=cellBiology

Hope everything will be fine...Pray hard and harder...!!

Miss day of that~~

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This is cheer up day of me...=)

Say NO!

2009-10-15T17:48:00.003+08:00

Panic and worry...

Today I did cell seeding for MTT assay.

1 by 1 incident happen..

It was caused me panic, worry and moodless..

It dont know why my liver cancer cell line is that stubborn.

I trypsinized twice, it was still cant detach.

My conclusion for the cell line is the cell line more confortable to settle down in new flask, so they dont like to detach..(Console myself..)

Faced 1 by 1 incident in the process of cell seeding,I was panic.

Errgh!

No Panic next time please...

*P/s: From beginning of FYP (1st of September), it was my first time i had my lunch at around 2pm..>.<

That time, i was totally surrended.I cant fight with it in order to plate 1 more MTT assay.

Next time PLEASE:

NO-

Panic

Moodless

Geram

Angry

Brain Hang

Yes-

Calm

Plan properly

Believe myself

When face any problem or sudden incident

Give myself

Cute but Headache

2009-09-19T09:53:00.003+08:00

Hep G2...

Something cute but headache for me..

For your information:

Hep G2 is liver cancer cell line.

The disease is hepatocellular carcinoma.

It is anchorage cell line which growth on bottom of T-flask.

It is also like to clump together. (That's problem that cause me headache).

They like to clump together..so they tend to overlap one to each other.

Thus, resuspend take me longer time to separate them into 1 cell to 1 cell condition..

It comes to a matter when my resuspend technique is damn poor...>.<

Hope it hear my pain..Please...

Ulu Langat Waterfall

2009-08-19T21:48:00.013+08:00

Back to 9th August 2009 (Sunday), somewhere i went: Ulu Langat Waterfall .

Where it is? Somewhere in Selangor lor..

Trip to Ulu Langat Waterfall was held by FES teakwando. Haha, I am not Teakwando member seriously i say. Ulu Langat Waterfall is really a beautiful and nice scene. Play fun alot at there and I miss the Natural 滑梯 so much..>.<. So much natural thing i can do, including NATURAL OSIM, Natural SK II (as RQ said)... Nothing I can describe more. Let's picture talk about everything.

Signboard before heading to Waterfall.

Waterfall

Take rest, before we climb around 4th floor height hill to reach waterfall place.

Reach destination.

Still planing how to wet?!

Natural OSIM. It's not Photoshop effect.

Before back.

Girls vs Boys.

2009-08-06T16:06:00.007+08:00

Just as a random post about different between girls and boys. See carefully. I mean GIRLS and BOYS but NOT MAN. * Haha..isi tersurat here..

Last week, I chatted with my best friend who currently studying Accounting in UUM. That was the first time we had long chat in MSN. The long chat between us need to thank to boys especially our special boyfriend. Yaa. both of us complaint about our bf. *Knowing him will not read my blog, so say something bad about him does not a matter..[evil laugh]:D..

By the way, complain about bf is not a big things ba..?!

I found that both of us have quite same concept towards our own bf. (I think not only both of us ya..it is including most of girls who are falling in love yar..).

Her bf tend to join co-curiculum even it is not included in their credit hour since they are year 3 ady. Her bf is member of Askar Wataniah. Thus camping is a thing cant be lacked of and 1 month training before camping is a MUST. Therefore, he need to have hours training everyday. As a result, his result might be influenced. That is what she worry about him and DISLIKE him satisfy his time in co-c rather than study.

Same situation at me here. He like to go to Teakwando training every Tuesday. Last few sem, he went to training every week, in my thought, he was chairman, so that is a responsibility to do so. But now, he resigned his post and still he has a passion go to training every Tuesday, even though some of old committe started to escape from the training. Same worry as my best friend come across. After training and back hime, it is quite late actually plus that time, it is too tired also. So..nothing can be done that time except burn midnight oil..However, tomorrow there is 8 am early MORNING class..

Lesson: Why they like to join co-curiculum so much? For them, co-curiculum can bring them happiness and relax. They also can mix with many friends who have same interest as them. Thus, they can make crazy and joke around.

Computer games or online games. Haha, some people when he/she see the title, he/she might know what point that i will point it out..Mostly boys they like to play games. Her bf also like to play computer games but not frequent because he knew his gf dont like him to play games. For example, before exam too stress, play games to release tension..

People who is knowing me, they know i also dont like him to play computer games. Really, at first, i hate him do nothing whole day and just play computer games. I am a quite weird girl that dont really like to play computer game. I do play simple computer games like Suduku, Mahjong Titans, FreeCell, Solitaire and etc. Like Stronghold Legands, Travian, WorldCraft and 三国 , i have not idea how to play and got boring about it then quit it. So, i dont really know why they can face the computer whole day just play it.

Lesson: After i asked him many questions regard the computer game, i found that actually from game, they can learn a lot and release tension. I read from newspaper, play online computer game can improve memory because both of our hand is using to play game so both side brain rather than 1 side brain is also worked at the same time.

So.. Activity and computer games are the boys' favourite that is different with girls. That is not truth for all of the boys and girls. Some girl, they like play game as well; while some boy, they dont like play game. But in my friend and my cases, our bf favourite is not same as us.

So what can we do?

[NO WAY ask either 1 change the habits. Only negotiation and understanding each other can overcome the madness and hatred. ]

Lastly, let me present u L4D. That is L4D (Left 4 Dead) which make those guys highly addicted.

I am emo again.

2009-07-31T10:41:00.003+08:00

I am emo again.

and I am confused as well.

Previously, i planned back penang this weekend due to next week, there is no test.

My plan suddenly changed because no one can take me when i reached Juru Tol (As you know, my place dont have a bus-station-like-place, so i need to take bus from pudu to Penang island or Butterworth and stop at Juru Tol.)

My dad and my eldest brothers are not at home. They went outstation... :(

p/s: Everyday thing MUST do is check mail. Waiting my FYP supervisor send me the consultation time in order to meet her..

pp/s: The relationship can cause someone to become more burden and headache. The problem come from both side's parents and the couple's feeling.

I hate myself

2009-07-24T20:21:00.002+08:00

I hate myself being such CRYBABY.
When i am stress, i tend to cry?!
When i face difficulty, i tend to cry too?!
(Is that a good excuse?? Definitely NO)

I dont want what gene is built inside my body..Cause me being crybaby..
I dont like myself being like this.
It is seem like i am a weak and weak person..
Cant take any risk, any difficulty..
I dont like others treating me so..

Because of crybaby, i cause other people especially my beloved (parents and him) worry..(oh..no.I dont want!!)
I like being any difficulty i can keep it in my inner side but not just cry out in term of tearss..

Because of this characteristic, my ambition is changed and changed..
Last time, i want to be doctor, BUT i scare STRESS.
I want to study ACCA (Association of Chartered Certified Accountants) and other accounting professional study, again, I scare STRESS.

But you will wonder, studying biotechnology is not stress??
Sure, stress of course. (If not, i will not become crybaby in this few year lar)
I choose biotechnology just because i enjoy to do research. That's it.=)

one month summary

2009-07-23T16:46:00.006+08:00

Haha..Looked back the lastest blog i have been posted. It was around 1 month ago..
The reason why i ignore my blog (Actually not really ignore, every day come and visit it just click my friends updated blog in the friend list. That's it. ): Mainly Due to RAT (want to know what short form refer to kindly go to visit biotechnology's blog ) =)

Too many want to blog about:
1. Co-curiculum

After 1 year being treasurer of First Aid Society, i really learnt a lot. Although there was not many major events were organized, it was still spent more time on it. Shame to say, i am not the most contributor for those events.

Finally the time came to Annual General Meeting (AGM) on 1st July 2009, treasurer post have to pass on to our next generation. From that moment, our committes were free from struggling and suffering in activities. It is nice. However, that time, i did not really free from it. I had to prepare Expenditure and Income statement. For me, preparing Expenditure and Income Statement, it is not difficulty and time consuming tasks (due to i got the format in hand and did it several time before and kind DSA officer willing to help me). But the statement without IMPORTANT RECEIPT how am i going to complete it within 2 days time after AGM. GOSH! I was really frustrated. Requested receipt for 1 weeks or more, finally i got it. (Thanks for those helping me got the receipt). This week, i got First Aid Society advisor signature, my job was finally done. *Fooohuuu*

2. FYP
Being Final year Biotechnology student , Final Year Project (FYP) cant escape with. Last few weeks, we were requested choose our FYP title. Last week, the candidate of FYP title list was out. I am selected. The reason i choose the title is due to the remark was stated in title: "Have strong interest and passion in natural product research and cell culture technique.". Frankly i say, other people might choose the FYP title based on interested in the particular title or particular lecturer, but i choose the title based on remarks. (haha, something wrong with me hur..)

Hope i can do it.
*Heard from senior: ATC is the most most "interesting " lab in UTAR."Cry...sob"* Pray hard!

*Since both of us choose different title as well as different lecturer for our FYP, free time for us less and less. Seem like no more shopping after this..
He is tortured by his supervisor's master student. Pity~

3. RAT
From week 7, every week, there is 1 test. It havnt included with lab reports and Assignments.
It is like "kill us a bit and a bit"...>.<

Yesterday right after Phytochemistry test, I was falling sick. I got feeling to vomit. In the bus on the way back home, the feeling became stronger and stronger. Nearly, i vomit out. That time if i really vomit out, i dont know how the bus driver is going to kill me. He is super duper hygiene people.Finally i vomitted out after i down from bus. I slept for 3 to 4 hours, then woke up to have dinner. Too bad, while waiting to the food coming, feeling of vomit came again...No choice, we had to tabao. That moment, I was really tortured. No appetite at all. But have to eat some because I suddenly remind doctor told me, if my stomach is empty for too long, feeling of vomit will come to attack me plus i got gastric. The condition become worst. I ate some spaghetti, the feeling come again and again..and my eye was pain..I laid on the bed with suffering cant do anything.. Luckily, he can help me to bancuh oat drink for me. After drinking oat drink, the feeling was better. ^^

幸福醒了

2009-06-21T00:21:00.003+08:00

最近我想了很多。想了过去，现在，未来。

听了这首歌感触了很多。

杨伟汉的[幸福醒了]

幸福醒了（主题曲）歌词
你睡了睡了睡得好甜在我的身边,
你笑了你做的梦一定是很甜,幸福,感觉,
慢慢贴近我身边,
就在你睡的那一边,
从来没有这样仔细看着你随你的呼吸牵动着我的心绪,
刹那之间,
向往已久的幸福的心中慢慢浮现,
看着你我突然觉得我好幸福,
可以感觉全世界为我祝福,
闭上眼睛,感觉清晰,藏不住爱更清楚,
看着你我真的觉得我好幸福,可以感觉全世界为我祝福,睁开眼睛,
可以肯定,拥有你的爱是我的幸福,
从你的掌心一直到我的指间,划一个圆圈许下了一个心愿,
不想太多,只想现在,而你一直是我最想拥有的明天. （这是病患者最想做的一件事）

中学时候的我偏爱看 AEC 的〈贤途有你〉。
每一集都呈现了我们社会里不被众人瞧不起的人。在节目里，他们/她们说出他们/她们成功克服的点点滴滴。

让我感到深处的是：有位患了癌症的患病者。她勇敢的积极面对事实和快快乐乐的过每天。她的快乐感染了身边的人。得癌症了的她从来不怨别人或老天。勇敢可嘉。

有一度想当心理辅导师，但自己只能辅导别人，而自己却做不到。所以，放弃了。

曾经的我因为胃痛的骚扰而讨厌自己。总觉得自己很没用。常常弄父母担心。小学的我假期，我都会半夜被父母载送去槟城医院，因为胃痛折磨了我。有时会有结束自己生命的冲动，但到最后那只是想想罢了。

来大都市读书得到了父母和公公的不允许，但还好有哥哥和叔叔们的鼓励。温室里的小花的我最终还是做了这个决定来这里。独自个人在人生地不熟的读书，刚开始很后悔。但来大都市读书时我迟早的事，慢慢的安抚自己和加上关心我的MC的同房朋友和陪伴的我的朋友。

尽管如此，父母还是担心我，可能我只会投诉我的不适和不高兴。直到念晓师姑告诉我和我懂了这个道理-〉你不要让父母担心，你就不要担心父母。我担心可能父母有不高兴，他们都不会告诉子女们。经常打电话问候可让父母减轻了担心。

加油了，向前看。把昨夜当教训，把现在当努力，把未来当目标。

Relationship

2009-06-07T17:47:00.004+08:00

Just back from Bentong.

Bad day for today.. ;(

Happy day for yesterday. =)

My mind still cant stop thinking at yesterday night yam cha with his good friends.

Another Mr lung (Lung mean "fei" in Chinese) i met.

Thanks anyway. [Hope the Mr. can fulfill his Penang trip's dream..keke..]

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Justnow I met her in MSN and I took initiative to greet her.
Luckilly she replied me..
Asked her about my curious regard her guessing.
Got expected reason.
Anyway, I didn't ask more for that.
Her answer is not important for me just fulfill my curiousity.
but I am happy with it
and hope her happy forever with her bf.

* She is my ex-classmate. That day, we were not really good friends but we talked frequently since she sat side with me and was separated by a lorong in class. After AN INCIDENT, we talked less and scared to meet each other. I quite scared of class reunion when back penang. However, after this year reunion, the fear is discarded (Hope so.). Struggling whole night because the fear and luckily get advice and console from him. Seem like stupid lor, suffer due to "old old " case.

Melacca trip before new sem

2009-06-02T17:56:00.006+08:00

This was my second time I dont know how to read and interpret my course timetable after join UTAR. First time was during first sem of my foundation, for sure i dont know how to read and interpret my course timetable lar..See the complicated timetable, i felt suffer. >.<
I hope the second week could be much more better with no changes class or exchange class.

Back to my holiday. (Got a bit late to post it)

I spent my day before new sem start in Melacca trip. It was 4 days 3 nights trips. 2 nights stayed at Aldy Hotel (upstair of Bamboo hunt or near 红屋). The trip was accompanied with my second elder brother and his gf. Seem like i became light bulb..haha..

The trip's schedule was organized by my elder brother's gf.

First day (28.05.09; Thursday)

- Started journey from Penang at 9am and reached Melacca at around 5pm. Dont get shock..The journey to Melacca is less than the time. The-long-hours journey was coused my uncle "tumpang" our car to KL to Menara Yayasan Tun Abdul Razak. But we got lost in KL.. *Shameful because stay more than 1 year in KL still get lost in KL.*

-Had our dinner with my second eldest bro's gf 's sistersss..at restaurant (I dont what name ady and dont know where it place). After that watched Angel and Deamon midnight movie at "dont noe" cinema (a.k.a the coldest cinema in Melacca)..Seem like MBO

Second day (29.05.09; Friday)

-Slept until 9am. Rushed to bath in order to get free breakfast which provided by the hotel. Delicious big breakfast set..;)

-Officially started our trip in Melacca. Start from 红屋, Istana Kesultanan Melayu. and then rest..ya..rest at Dataran Pahlawan.. For girl's nature, rest become shopping..Haha..Shop until 3pm and had half price sushi on belt at Sushi House.

-Had light dinner at Satay Celup. Then went to Jonker street.. Bought so-called-hair-pin cost rm15. It is made from Taiwan. Nice. I like it. At the end, we shopped at there from 8 something until 11:00pm. However, my brother promise to meet his ex-uni friends at 10:30pm. Which mean it was over time d..After that, we had so-called dinner at mamak. (Dont ask me the name of mamak stall..I dont know. Gosh, din remember shop name..)

Third day (30.05.09; Saturday)

-Slept until skip breakfast. Checked out from Aldy Hotel. Had Chicken Rice Ball as lunch at "still dont noe" restaurant (but not 古城鸡饭粒).

-Lot of plan for that day due to many people will join us. That day was last paper of MMU final exam, mean that my brother's gf 's sisters will join us in visiting Melacca as well as my third elder brother.

-Noon: Checked in King's Hotel which in front of Melacca Pantai Hospital. Before that, we went to Melacca Zoo. Amazingly, we saw Chimpanzee smoke. Dont know which wasted people give it cigratte. It can smoke as like as human being from the way to hold the cigratte and blow out the smoke. Dont know next time, I still can see that chimpanzee (Bcoz kena Lung cancer rate increase lor). I also saw quite special monkey like what Quan shao like. Pink butt monkey as well as rainbow color of face and pink nose. *Too bad no photo available. All are at my brother's gf there.*..

-Night: Plan= Take boat to round Sungai Melaka, Jonker street craving for Asam Laksa and Gula Melacca Ice kacang, Menara Taming Sari, Eye On Malaysia, Eye On Melacca.
End up= Took boat to round Sungai Melaka, Jonker Street but we were late, finish ady, Menara Taming Sari. Eye On Malaysia and Eye On Melacca==> Not enough time. =(

Anyway, i felt that Eye On Malaysia in Titiwangsa was much more prettier bcoz Eye On Malaysia in Melacca only display white in color rather than rainbow color.

I like Menara Taming Sari. Good. Excellent..Really enjoy to view whole Melacca city.

I dont have camera with me.So grabbed photo from another blogger.

Last Day (31.05.09; Sunday)

-Initial plan to have breakfast at Mc Donald near Melacca Zoo there. It is claimed as the most delicious Mc.D in Melacca. I dont know how true it is. But in the end, we changed plan due to inconvenient.

-Helped to move house. Bcoz my brother's gf 's sister already graduated.

-Noon: Back in KL.

Totally "meaningful"

2009-05-22T21:45:00.006+08:00

Had my holiday since last tuesday.
Back in Penang last Wednesday.

Addicted to 《痞子英雄》Taiwan Drama. (Which "recommend" by SSDM during Exam week..)Hope to watch 《老婆大人II》。(but My home internet line always disconnect..)

Kinda frustrated with internet connection in my house. Disconnect after 5 or 10 minutes i used.

Plan to post some blog after back in Penang but face this-so-called streamyxy internet line, I rather choose to shut my laptop..

Recently become 宅女。(Gosh!! He influence me..>.<)

Addicted to Vice City Computer game...
Challenging and interesting and "Kin Jiong" computer game..
It is also one of mid violent game..

This few days, i fill myself with sea food..haha
Every meal sure got sea food..Normally fishs and prawn..Hohoho..
Eat those fishs and prawns puas puas..haha

P/s: Penang's miss Pahang's (ignore it)

My shopping wish come true

2009-04-15T10:19:00.006+08:00

Desperately want to go shopping..
Finally, Saturday (11/4/09) was there..
After Molecular Biology lab test, we headed to Jusco..

Just want to play games at there.

UTAR biotechnology (shown at right upper side)get higher score..Dont know who are so geng...

How luckilly we are. We met TARC gang three time in 1 day in different place..
Had lunch at McD due to got promotion yar..rm5 sthg without adding tax.

Sunday (12/04/09), we went out again..(seem like so rich huh?!)
We went to Mid Valley (Ya, it is so far from Setapak)..
Spent 2 hours just for travel to MidValley from Setapak and we didnot take KTM too~.

Took IRT to KL central, then from KL central take rapid KL to Mid Valley.
When at KL central, we met 2 kind uncles. They gave their rapid kl ticket to us. They din resquested us to pay them because they want to rush back to Taiping.. Thanks you anyway~

Having 2 movies perday..

Nice movie. Initially, I dont wish to watch. Because i dont understand the story line when i watched the trailer..But he wish to watch.. Due to dont let him disspointed, i agree to watch it..Luckilly i dont insist my opinion..hehe...

Nice movie also..Although it was "U" movie, some part still can shock me. (may be i am easilly to be shocked)..It is Disney movie production. Recommend to watch. Like 2 child main character..Enjoy to watch even though i was tired..

End up no time to shopping..

Monday, after class, we headed to Jusco again..
Why leh??
Bought shirt and etc.
The main purpose is eat SALMON TEPPAYAKI..
Promotion again: It is discount 50% for salmon teppayaki during week day ONLY..
Yamm....delicious..Salmon Teppayaki is my favourite..~

Tuesday..announce BROKE..
Stay at home..
but I am sick.
Headache.
I slept for whole noon..but still headache and feeling want vomit~
At night, i cant stand for headache anymore..
So went to see doctor..
"Gosh", 5 packs of medicine..some more some of them need to consume 4 times per day..haiiz
Hate medicine THE MOST..

Winnie The Pooh

2009-04-07T19:37:00.001+08:00

They are waiting for their siblings~~

in order to form 1 football team..

Fly Away~

2009-04-07T16:41:00.005+08:00

After Molecular Biology Test 2, i have 1 thought..

I want to escape from here..(Stressful here huh?!)

I want to stay whole day in Shopping complex (May be long time din step to Shopping Complex). Do what i want, eat what i want, play what i want and buy what i want..

See on the lecture note.. I feel hate..

Or...

I want to travel to other state especially Melacca. Why Melacca?? Because during my foundation, same feeling attacked me and I did travel 2 day 1 night at Melacca. Enjoy at that time. Eat what I want, shopping without any purpose.

Hope one of them, I can fullfill NOW..

But it is impossible..

Ok~~ Tata~

No electricity

2009-04-07T15:56:00.003+08:00

I think it is quite out-dated post..

Last Saturday (4.4.09), Plaza Prima Setapak, 1 block of Prima Setapak and shops near to Plaza were no electricity..

It was no electricity without NOTICE..

Haaiizz..

Forget about it~.

It let me bring back my childhood memory.

Still remember that, when i was in stadard 4 or 5, there was no electricity without notice also quite few times..

I did quite many stupid yet funny things at that time..

My brothers and I acted as RESCUE team member. We brought touchlight and few candles walk around house (As ur knowledge, my uncle and aunt, cousins, grandparents and my parents stay under 1 roof)..We went to "rescue" who were "trapped" in the dark such as like trap in toilet or trap in the room with no any light source.

Actually I do like no electricity period. When i was small, only when no electricity, i could play with candle. Pieces is symbolic of ROMANTIC ..Candle light = romantic (haha^^) . I played hand shadow under candle light.. Quite enjoy..Hehehe..

Last saturday, I heard got people sang "Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you.." at downstair. I laughed loudly.. Laughed them silly as well as laughed myself.. I did so before.. I lighted up the candle happilly and then sang "Happy birthday to you...."Silly of me always do the silly things..haha..

Night with no electricity is a suffering incident. Sleep with no fan or air-cond..However, I did enjoy it when i was small. The reason is I could sleep with natural fan..Haha...We took out our mattress to balcony and slept. Quite happy because can enjoy camping life..Annoying when mosquitos sang song around my ear and kissed my leg and hand.

Back to age now.. Those things cant be applied at here..No electricity annoy me more.. Sleep with no fan, bath with no light, play computer with no internet...Aiiyahh...>.<

友情vs爱情

2009-03-21T08:22:00.003+08:00

友情和爱情之间要怎样取舍？？
要如何把爱情和友情的分量就像天枰那样的平等。

Tired day~

2009-03-19T22:22:00.010+08:00

Today is kind of tired day..
7:00am to Uni and 7:00pm back from Uni..
The reason why i was so early to Uni..
Because 8:30am is Plant Tissue Culture Lab..and requested by our Lecturer Dr. Anna Ling to be punctual for lab..(because lab session need to use 2 hours to complete)..As well as mostly of us late for last practical due to MAY BE Metro bus driver together to REFUSE TO WORK (May Be only..)because there was no METRO BUS available on that time..SO today have to go out early to take Early UTAR bus.
For today experiment, I did improper skill that might be caused contaminant..">.<" (That is not what I want.) ;(

Finish part of Lab session.. Had Animal Tissue Culture at 1pm..All of us look so tired..I am one of them..The reason is even week..For Biotech students, EVEN WEEK is disaster week..3 days continous need to have wake up for lab..Our caring Animal Tissue Culture 's lecturer found us so so so inactive and repressed by repressor..Today only found out the problem..Hehehe..

Then, I had Moral Presentation ..."Gosh!!" We are last group present.."cry.." We started our presentation early then expected..Thanks for cooperation from previous presentation group...

That is people left when we were presentating. The Left side couple is Joanne Hew and her bf and the right side people is our lecturer..

Another picture: The front people is Yee Xin and The behind couple is Joanne Hew and her bf.

*You might see same photo in Tingand Min-Zhin blog. The low quality photos were taken by me . I curi-curi took photo while our presentation still carry on and lecturer was curious for what i am doing...but didnt ask..Those photo were taken from Ting's blog. I lazy to edit the photo~~..Thanks anyway

Since We dont have group photo after presentation..So Here is our group photo was taken for our assignmnet purpose before we hand in our assignment..

We end our presentation at 6:25pm but we waited for 7:00pm UTAR bus..Cant deny, our Genting Klang UTAR bus driver is kinda hardworking and like to be clean..In order to avoid us to distrub him to have cleaning job, he asked us wait at another place..

At last, we are 5 of people ONLy in the bus...

Yong Yong, MOk, me and Min-zhin and Ting as Camera people..

Thanks for driver to switch on light for us to take nice photo also~~

Back to Genting Klang..Had dinner at Bintang Tujuh..Since long time din eat at there..Miss Nasi Goreng Pattaya...Had Nasi Goreng Pattaya, but that is not the taste that i miss for..That is taste-less...Curi-curi makan his Maggie Goreng in order to let my tongue to have more taste...

Got to borrow PSP from Bong.."Gosh", I am addicted in it.

PSP

Honestly to tell, I just played for half an hour and i get a bit bored for it..

Dont know why, i read other people blog rather than online play game..

I can online for hours just read people blog, but i cant really play online game for hours..

It might be due to i dont have the patience in playing game..

So sad~~

1 day trip to 1 UTAMA?!

2009-03-07T17:20:00.005+08:00

Hoo..
Just back from Pj..
Ya, is PJ..
Why did i go to PJ??
Hehee..1 day trip to ONE UTAMA (1U)..
Ya..is 1 U..
Why say so??
We three people kena play til we got NO direction..
The reason is:
After finish our Genetics Lecture at 11:00am, We of us (Hee Boon aka Quan Sao, Ren Quan aka ar Pek, and me) straight to Kelana Jaya station by LRT.. "Take us almost 1 hour"
Around 10:30 am, He sms-ed me: "Now opening ceremony. We havnt compete yet..I don't know when we compete wor.."
So..Very luckily, when we reached Kelana Jaya LRT station, we saw Ce-Yan. She offered to take us go 1 utama since she also wanna go there shopping with her sister. (For your information, we want to go for Teakwando GTF tournament at Segi Main Campus College at PJ. So we plan go to 1 Utama or Ikano or The Curve to have teksi to Segi, because more nearer and texi rate also not much also.)

Thus, after few minutes, we reached 1 Utama. We thought we can get there and see they compete..How I know...Before reach entrance of 1 utama, He called me: "I finish competed d.." I was like "huhh, So fast.."ok lor..We only reach 1 way, we will reach there d. So We don't bother it. Asked for teksi to go there.. The result was the teksi rate go to Segi College from 1 Utama is rm11..Ya, is rm11..What the :hell:!! rm 11 wor...I can take it from Pudu to Setapak yar...

We gave up then we walked to old wing to try our luck to get cheaper rate to go there. When we reach bus stop there and sit to wait, something funny happen. Guess what??
We heard "di ta di ta di ta di ta...". I curious and ask what sound it is.
Ren Quan told me: is bird step in the bus stop roof.
I told him: "Where got wor..I din see birds also (Actually the roof is quite translucent d)"..
He replied me: "We cant see..It is already covered..cant see clearly.."
How i Know, i saw the floor got big big dots rain..Arr..Ren Quan..Is raining lar.Is not birds pass by yar..

Our first reason was: Why we so "sui"1 arr..Can't see they compete, high rate teksi somemore Raining..We end up give up..

I phoned him and told him that we will not go there d and asked him came 1 Utama to meet us.. After long long long long long long long long long long discussion (it is really really long.Take about 1 and half hour to discuss and conclude), we plan to have shopping at there.. He asked us dont go there because no teksi there and the transport they have also full d (they go by car). We were like played silly..Cant lar..We need to step step 1 utama for a while..We cant go back like that arr...

So plan go to shopping there until he came to meet us. We had lunch at McD. While eating, a call from Foong Kheng. She asked us how is the tournament..Hehe..We din go there.Since final may have it at noon, we asked Foong Kheng fetch us to Segi College from 1 Utama. She ok with it. How I know..Before Foong Kheng come, he sms-ed me: "we are handing to Kelana Jaya NOW." I was like: "Huh...?? Now..Foong Kheng havnt came yet yar..They all want back yar". Mean that final will hold tomorrow morning.. *dissappoited*..

Very end...We went back also...
Conclusion: We din go or even step to Segi College..>.<

But at least got 1 GOOD NEWS: He won the competition and get into Final..
Final will at tomorrow morning...^^

Conscious

2009-03-04T18:47:00.003+08:00

Long time didn't update my blog..
The reasons here are:
I lazy to login my blogger account though I read others people blog every day except few days ago and;
Busy with assignments and tests as well as Lab report..

Today something happen Again..
What is the problem??
Urgh...I talked about 1 people while that people just behind me..
I just noticed it until I finished my story..
What story about, I think I' m no need mention here though that people will not read my blog..

Actually same things happen when i was in Industrial Training last year..
Same situation..Just the people i mentioned to is so far and so near from me..I am not sure that fellow hear what i am talking about..

Arr...

Huu...Tomorrow need to hand up Animal Tissue Culture lab report and Pendidikan Moral Midterm test..

CNY + Bukit Tabur

2009-02-08T15:24:00.005+08:00

This year, I have 1 week holiday for CNY.
-Back from KL at 24th Jan morning and reach hometown Sg Bakap,Penang around 6pm. Direct board to Pacific for buying Chinese New Year necessary thing like Chinese Oranges and etc.
-Cleaning as well when back home.

CNY eve:
-Paid Visit to our Primary School 3-years-form teacher: 江君雪师.
-It was a long time no see since last time class reunion at my house..It was considered class reunion for our primary school ex-classmates.

Picture with teacher and ex-classmate @ teacher's house.

CNY first day:
-As usual like previous year. Ate vegetarian meal in the morning.
-The different was: Gambling in my house. Dad played cheat, so i can earn so much money..after gambling, BBQ..Hohohoohoo..actually due to want to test new BBQ set.

CNY second day:
-Followed mum back her mother house. Ate Steambot and laksa..Hohoho..Finally i can eat laksa. Last sem break, i have not chance to eat laksa when I back (chicken pox pasal). Before went there: Gamble.
-Secondary ex-classmate came and paid visit me. Know much more story from them.

CNY Third day:
-BBQ..Invited many people come..Some of my gang came as well. Continue our story and learn many especially regard boyfriend and girlfriend relationship.

CNY fourth day:
-Half die d..Stay at home and had a rest..

CNY Fifth day:
-Went to buy new luggage @ Parit Buntar.

CNY Sixth day:
-Back in KL. First time drive in South-East Highway. Terrible..Saw so much cars and I dont dare to cut the queue.
-Brought Parents and brother went to StarHill, Pavilion, Times Square and Sungai Wang by Monorial..

CNY Seventh day:
-Back in Setapak..

CNY Eighth day:
-Had shopping and movie @ KLCC
-Saw something "Funny"..Kekekekeke

CNY Nineth -Thirdteenth day:
-Busy with study, assignment and report
-As well busy with First Aid Society event

CNY Fourteenth day:
-Conquered Bukit Tabur. Quite difficult but fun..Hate the pathway down from Mountain.
Meet moutain guides. Guide us use alternative way for those people in-experience. Thanks lot.
Any about Bukit Tabur can be viewed from her blogspot.

In the Peak of Mountain^^

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Lab Group Photo.

2009-01-20T17:24:00.011+08:00

To Be Continue..

Seem like so late, I post about Insutrial Training post. Hehehe, aiiyah, I am so lazy yar..

27th December 2008, I was officially finish my training at there. 6th October 2008 till 27th December 2008, it was a such long journey for us at first. Still remember, 5 of us ( Huey Paey, Lay Theng, Ping Wey, Chen Jiang and me) play around with take leave stuff. Ya, our company supervisor allow us to take leave with just fill up application form. First day, we said that, 5 of us, 1 person take a day leave and started to decide who want to take Tuesday's leave, Wednesday's leave, Thursday's leave, Friday's leave and Saturday 's leave. End up, we all become good trainee as our internal supersivor told us NOT To Take leave..

Hohoohohhoo..Went 1 week training, take leave 2 weeks..Hehehee..I am the first and took the longest leave trainee among them..Back in training in week 4. USCI trainees came in week 5. One of trainees is my brother's ex-classmate, so easily they mixed with us. From there, we had many many plans for outing.Those successful plans was posted in my previous post d.

Dont know which week, 6 of big gang MSU (Management and Science University) trainees came and had training with us. 3 guys and 3 girls. 2 chinese guys, 1 indian guy and 3 indian girls..Aiiyooh,Indian..!!! Hard to communicate with them yar.. (first thinking when saw them). At last, we mixed with them also..One of reasons is we were boring with routine work there. Chit-chat with them and make noise and laugh with them..Hehhee..They learned Chinese from us while We learned Tamil from them..

With Patrick

Top Indian girl: Jamie; Bottom Indian Girls from Left: Preshella aka Mem-Persila-Kan, Lavanya aka Lavendar..

We were always play around.Still remember,we asked Su Choo helped to take photo for us. She just took Paey and Winnie first, then i added in. After i added in, she shouted that she also wanna join us to have group photo. We told her, after we took this photo, we will help her to take photo.. Then, we were so BAD. After 3 people group photo, we rushed away to cafeteria since something promotion at there.Hahhaa..she shouted and shouted: "Weei, I havent been taken photo..Wait me wait me.."

Winnie and Huey Paey

After I add in...^^

Here are those picture that we taken before we finish our Industrial Training at Hospital Lam Wah Ee..

Trainees with Dr.Das (Laboratory Pathalogist)

All staffs and trainees without Winnie

Without Su Choo

Outing during training

2009-01-05T23:30:00.024+08:00

While waiting...
I post some of my outing photo with trainees from Hospital Lam Wah Ee during 11 weeks or 12 weeks or 10 weeks Industrial training..

1) Gurney watching movie: Magdascar II and had dinner at Hong Kong Restaurant (forget what name )

Kelvin, Winnie Lim PoohPooh From UCSI, Huey Paey and Me. (*Sorry delete ady another 4 ppl group photo)

2) Movie: High School Musical 3 @ Gurney Plaza, Had western food as dinner @ Tanjung Tokong (Dont know the shop name, just know beside 大肥罗shop.)

All girls in car (All red..except Xiao Mei Mei) when we back from movie:
From back left: Lay Theng, Su Choo; Front: Me, Huey Paey, Winnie

Again.. (Biomed, biochem and biotech students from different uni and different batch)

Effect of Self-capture.. All of us.. The most Front Left: Chen Jiang, Kelvin aka Min Han

3)Celebrate Lay Theng and Ping Wey's birthday @ e-Gate's 又一城

Red again..^^

All red include guys.

All of us^^

4) Education Fair @ Gurney Hotel + Movie: The Day The Earth Stood Still @ Gurney Plaza

* We took half day leave for that day..Had Lunch @ New World Park
(so-call-last outing with 8 trainees)

Before go Education fair

At Gurney drive with Paey (Penang island's Roomate)

With Winnie

After Education Fair

All of us in Black (Chen Jiang is not in..)

More lighter..

At Gurney Plaza before Movie.

We with Christmas Tree..

All in black.^^

Action wor..

Me and Paey

Weird effect photo with Paey, then ask Winnie give some contrast effect..

5) The-last-outing: Farewell for ourself @ Mc D near Green Lane for lunch..

*No photo available...(four of us: Kelvin aka Min Han, Winnie, Su Choo and me)

Due to Kelvin didn't get champion for 华乐, he was responsible to treat us..

As a result, he treated us Mc D Chocolate Sundae..

Here are the outing photo....^^

To be continue: Pathology Laboratory's photos..

Hate

2008-12-26T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hate?? How is the feeling of hate?
Recently, I am extermely hate a person.
How can I meet this kind of people?
In reality world, is it full of this kind of people.
Actually, I didnt hate her when i heard complaint from my friend, but I kena pula..
What fault with me?
Is it trainee cant do things wrongly and cant have any improvement for next time??
Fine, I dont want to angry so much.
Just feel like a clever student, president list or dean list student or local U student can treat other people badly? Nothing I can complain it..-.- what i can say is there will have "balasan" (Paey's quotation:报应 )。
May be perfective people have a weird characteristic.

Now learn how to tolerance to that kind of people...
*Sorry for any offensive words.

Back to Training

2008-11-08T20:26:00.005+08:00

It is 2 weeks i back into training again after suffering from Chicken pox..
And now End of week in Cytopathology and Histopathology department..
Learn a lot..
Although there is not test or exam at all, every day i was struggled with question as well as i asked a lot question..(Those people who know me well, they know I always ask A LOT of Question)
My department supervisors taught me a lot..
Sometime I get to question back some question from my supervisors..
I cant answer although it is a SIMPLE question.It's true.It is a SIMPLE question.
I was gotten to "blame" that WHOLE WEEK I STAY at the DEPARTMENT, WHAT I LEARN??
It was hurt when i heard about it..
No matter how, i take it as a lesson and no repeat next time...

Chicken Pox

2008-10-20T14:05:00.005+08:00

Last week, I'm off due to chicken pox suffering me..Sunday (12 october 2008)officially announce I suffer from Chicken pox..What can i do?? Rest at home..

I went to industrial training at Hospital Lam Wah Ee for 1 week and take leave for 2 weeks.. I don't know chicken pox attack now is good for me or bad. People said the more older people get chicken pox, the more suffer.

Back to what have i done in 1 week leave. Actually i did nothing. Except sleep and eat. Really few days kena chicken pox, i was like "huh"..I had fever and few pox at my body, neck, and check. They made me itchy and painful. I still can sleep nicely at first few day..Whole day, most of the time, i contribute to sleep. After wake up, eat something and medicine, SLEEP again. It is very sleepy and pening kepala. I don't know it was consequence of medicine or chicken pox. Still remember one night, there was a remarkable time for me. I was high fever plus terrible headache and i forced myself to sleep. I could not sleep at all somemore my mind just think to admit hospital to release my pain and fear. My parents was not at home at that time. Luckilly my brother was in. I asked him bought me a "Kool fever". i sticked at my headfoce. At least, I feel ok but still fever..

After few more days, some people can see online (mean in MSN) in working hour..Ya, I am on leave. Search for some information regard chicken pox. I found something special for me.

"CHICKENPOX is regarded as a rite of passage for every child, but did you know that it can cause serious complications and make you susceptible to secondary infections later as an adult?
Red rashes start popping up all over your child’s body. Within several days, these pimple-like bumps turn into liquid-filled blisters. Your child develops a fever, loses his appetite and becomes increasingly irritable. He is quarantined at home and misses his lessons at preschool.
患水痘的病者一般有發熱，全身不舒服，與感冒發燒不同的是，這種發燒會使人覺得熱。通常嬰幼兒常沒有前驅症狀；年長兒或成人則有發熱頭痛等症狀，通常在1至2天後才出疹。身上出現皮疹是水痘最明顯的癥狀。

The doctor cautions you to make sure your child does not scratch the rash (no matter how horribly itchy it gets) as scratching can cause a bacterial infection of the skin.
In fact, the doctor surprises you when he mentions the possibility of other serious complications such as pneumonia or encephalitis (inflammation of the brain).
嬰兒或兒童生水痘，最令父母感到擔心，因為身上的水皰結痂時會發癢，小孩通常會忍不住去搔癢，當水皰被抓破後就會使皮膚容易受感染，進而肺炎，或血液中毒（敗血症）。
[People always advice me dont to scratch the pox (should call rash )or else it will get scar which cause imperfect skin. The primary reason is.....]

What is chicken pos ??Chickenpox is an infection caused by the varicella-zoster virus. The varicella-zoster virus is extremely contagious and can spread through physical contact or through the air from a sneeze or cough."

I heard some of my friend who same age with havnt suffered from chicken pox. Here is some advice i get from article.

"The only way to prevent being infected with chickenpox is by vaccination. Produced with the weakened varicella-zoster virus, the chickenpox vaccine is usually administered to children between the ages of one and 12, as well as adults and teenagers who have yet to contract chickenpox.
While the vaccine will prevent chickenpox in most children, a small number may still become infected. However, they will get a milder form of the infection, with less severe symptoms and much less skin lesions.
Like all other vaccines, the chickenpox vaccine can have side effects – the most common being redness, pain and swelling at the injection site. Talk to your doctor to find out more about the vaccine."

2 weeks leave cause me have replacement for my industrial training..
Aiiyahh..
[Good]: I wont miss anything will be learn in industrial training
[Bad] : I will late 2 weeks finish my industrial training compare to other >.<

More information about chicken pox, here are the link
http://http://thestar.com.my/health/story.asp? file=/2007/12/23/health/19813661&sec=health (English version)

http://http://health.sinchew-i.com/node/502 (Mandarin version)

Days after final

2008-10-11T21:35:00.005+08:00

Days after final exam~~
19/10/08-(Friday) Last paper of final exam..
-After exam, went to Pudu (bought bus ticket back penang)
-Then KLCC trip..Ate Vienna Doughnut: Quite interesting with, bcoz our Nyonya always shouted to me "VIEN--NA"
(PetroScience)*Urgh, due to late to go and PetroScience too large enough, we cant get to see and play each section and game>.<* -Watched series movie 20/10/08 (Saturday) -Cleaned house
-House full of dirt.. (finally clean ady:))
-Ate SPL 's xiao gua Tom Yam (taste like my secondary school canteen's Tom Yam)

21/10/08 (Sunday)
-Kinda tired after cleaning house.
-Wake up late (Lunch in Station One)
-Dinner at Tallipon..(it is my first time,quite good actually..)

22/10/08 (Monday)
-Went Pavillion for movie (Money Not Enough 2), Meal: J.Co Doughnut,Wong Kok (smbody favourite shop"winks")
-Watched series movie

23/10/08 (Tuesday)
-Nothing to do at home.
-Watched series movie again till headache "ohh..kena marah yar.. :@"

24/10/08 (Wednesday)
-Cleaned house
-Went Bentong

25/10/08 (Thursday)
-~~~Bentong~~~Wan Tan Mee, morning market, Kampung Baru Cina.......

26/10/08 (Friday)
-Back to KL

27/10/08 & 28/10/08 (Saturday and Sunday)
-Went for softskill Programme
-Wake up 6:00 am early in the morning and reached home at 8:00pm but really have fun in the process..

29/10/08 (Monday)
-rest day..Since so many days need to wake up early and the next day went to Chi Ji Camp.

30/10/08 & 1/10/08 (Tuesday & Wednesday)
-Chi Ji Camp at Melacca
-Have fun..but a bit boring for certain topic or section of talk
-Get to know friends from KTar and UTAR

2/10/08 (Thursday)
-Back from Camping
-Packing for back penang tomorrow

3/10/08 (Friday)
-back penang: Supposing got good mood but K** Company bus ruined my mood. I bought 9:30am bus, but we got to get the bus around at 11 am and let us sit the 4 seat bus (I bought for 3 seat bus). Quite frustrated.. Bad service.."Urgh..I was really a bad mood when to see those kinda people "

4/10/08 (Saturday)
-As tour guide, bring along to Sungai Jawi, Sungai Bakap, Nibong Tebal, Parit Buntar and the 1 hour pass through 3 states (Penang, Perak, and Kedah) :)
-went Autocity: Starbucks

Quite Weird dee...

Industrial training

2008-08-30T11:30:00.005+08:00

Final is just around the corner..
----STRESS--------
Time flies again~~
Went through all the 14 weeks...
After final, 3 months sem break is replaced by INDUSTRIAL TRAINING
What to do??
Since it is OPTIONAL, i can choose not to go..
but i din do like that...
Still, i applied to have industrial training in Hospital Lam Wah Ee in Penang island.
I get approval..
After get to know the detail from the hospital,
I am like .....
"working day Mon-Fri 8.30am-5.00pm,Sat 8.30am-1pm,
report your self on 6/10/08,9am in Lab, bring your own Lab coat."
Saturday need to work??
-.-
No choice..no choice...
That is my decision..
Fact cant be changed anymore..
Only..i accept it..
Think in another way, i can fill my free time (saturday) with useful stuff....
"wink???"

Re：小手牵大手？？

2008-08-26T01:58:00.003+08:00

Story is grabbed from nixxie blog. The reason i put this story is to suit one of my blog that i have been posted before.

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, 'Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river.'

The little girl said, 'No, Dad. You hold my hand.
' 'What's the difference?' Asked the puzzled father.
'There's a big difference,' replied the little girl. 'If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.'

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours... (Anon, 2008) ^^

遇到

2008-08-26T01:36:00.004+08:00

歌手：恶作剧之吻歌曲：遇到

你身上专署的陌生味道

是我确认你存在的目标

不用爱会掌握了知道竟是

我们相隔着一个街角

沉默久了还是可以感到

感觉的到你对我的重要

不会被天黑天亮打扰

你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到

我比谁都更明白你的重要

沉默久了我就决定了

决定了你的手我握了不会放掉

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到

我答应自己不再庸人自扰

因为我要的我自己知道

只要你的肩膀愿让我靠

领悟

2008-08-22T12:19:00.005+08:00

21.08.08，我被邀请去慈青主办的“中秋晚会”。
开始，我一直挣扎要不要参与，不懂会不会闷。
最后，就想去看看怎样呀！毕竟，近期很忙也很压力，就去哪儿解解压。
地点在plaza prima Setapak 的第十楼，就在我先在住的屋的楼上。

到了那儿，慈青们都很热烈的欢迎我们的到来。
我不是第一次被这种欢迎方式来迎接我的到来。
过后，我们自我介绍。
然后，唱唱歌（是慈济歌还是慈青歌，不懂？）。
唱歌加上手语（满特别）。

过后的环节是“环保”。
这环节让我受益不少。
环保听多了，但要怎样环保呢是个学问。
环保不只是把旧报纸，塑料罐等等收集了把它们拿去回收环保。
原来，我们应该少使用汽车。这会减少二氧化碳的产生。
吃多少就拿多少。吃的分量少，我们就拿少。
等等....

接下来的环节是使用回收材料自制灯笼。
大家使出自己的创意。

最后一个环节是观赏《大爱》影片。

经过那晚会，我开始有点领悟。
在短短的两个小时，我能感受无压力的心情。
我的父母是德教会的委员。
就像我的爸爸，假如早放工，他都会德教会看看走走。
可能对他们来说，去哪可能可他们减压和忘掉烦恼。
假如有什么庆典，他们都会很踊跃的参与。
就像每个农历七月，爸爸妈妈每个晚上都会去德教会参师。（不懂什么庆典。）
整整一个月，有时想要找妈妈谈些事都很难找出时间。
有时很讨厌，很讨厌为什么爸爸妈妈都经常管德教会，把我们都忽列了。
现在懂了他们的作为。
做善事有时是那靠那颗心。
不管多忙，只要那颗心还在，做善事是少不了。

沟通

2008-08-21T06:54:00.004+08:00

不懂何时，
口头语言的沟通不在有了，
换来的是无言的沟通的。
什么事都是最后一分钟才知道。
知道的时候也是太迟了。
有时很怀疑，
不懂是怎么一回事。
有时感觉要顺别人意做的话，
是很很难也很辛苦的事。

*想了很久，不懂要不要把心理的话搬出来。
就在无法忘记的情况，就得发泄了。

Should I??

2008-08-16T13:48:00.003+08:00

My mind always get into this question.
Should I tell him what am i thinking about?
Should I tell him anything about my stuff??
Should I ?
and
Should I??
Definately I tell him what happiness in my life..
But...
For the sadness and painfulness..
I always to think twice and think a lot..
Thinking what the result after i tell him..??
What will he do???
And
What can I do??
Normally what he can do, i can easily to get it..
I am a kind of person don't wish to share my painfulness and sadness with other even him..
I prefer to keep it and let me to suffer myself..
As a result, i get into a suffer myself situition.

At beginning of journey, one of my hometown best friend adviced me...
Try to tell him whatever your thinking..
Let him know what you want and what you think..
I did..I did..
but I found that there is not different after i tell him and NOt telling him..
Desperate....>.<

Hate my life now totolly!!!
Tests and Stomach Ache attack and trouble my life...

想太多 >.<

2008-08-13T19:14:00.003+08:00

Really time flied..

2 months past...

--------------------------------------------------------

开始...

想太多的日子开始...
想了太多，自己变得不快乐。
逼自己不去想，但情况变得更糟糕。
反而自己想得更加更加多。
是怀疑吗？？
是信心吗？？
这到底是什么一回事?

很想说“对不起”。
P/s: 不要在事情过后才来后悔和道歉。
就在事情前不做让你后悔和道歉。

小手牵大手

2008-08-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

Word of my Feeling

2008-08-07T18:29:00.003+08:00

When days past by, we can see each other clearly.
That is a point quarrel come toward.
As our Management tutor said: For Couple, it should have quarrel.
I am totally agree with it.
Recently, I don't know what wrong with me.
Everything that i see, I feel not comfortable with it.
What he did, I have some comment on it.
I think the problem come from me.
Stress again attack me. >.<
---------------------------------------------------------------------
For me, quarrel is none stop happened in my life.
It causes my life from a flat mode to become a flactuate mode.
It is a wonderful life.
So everyday, it is not a same..
Always, I try to find those new things.
Find how to be a new..
Sound like i "hate old and like new" (喜新厌旧)
-----------------------------------------------------------
Just now, i read one of my friend's blog.
He said he found that many people read his blog and he start to write his blog based on the reader.
For him, blogging is not longer a place for him to shout out what he want to say.
I also got such feeling.
Not neccessary all my thinking can be posted on it.
Sometime, after i blog, I dont know what is my purpose of post my blog.
It is untill i need to write a title for it.
I am like what am i write.

爱没有重量，爱不是负担，而是一种喜悦的关怀和无求的付出。

感觉

2008-07-27T14:16:00.003+08:00

是感觉吗？

感觉对了吗？

感觉是个什么东西？

为什么是感觉呢？

怎样的感觉才是对的呢？

First~~

2008-07-23T11:55:00.002+08:00

First ~~
Plaza Prima Setapak
Time Square
KFC
Old Town
Eye On Malaysia
男人女人

男人女人】歌词
(女)爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等於收回我却还在等待著谁能出现
(男)伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈我却还是学不会狠心对谁
(女)男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
(男)女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生
(女)爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等於收回我却还在等待著谁能出现
(男)伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
(合)我却还是学不会狠心对谁
(男)女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生
(女)男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
(男)女人女人我答应做个好人
(女)不会再让我心疼~(男)不会再让你心疼~
(合)一等在等你就是我等的那个人
(女)男人男人 (男)女人女人
(合)多麼希望你是对的人

This song, I heard it during the FES Asian Culture Society was promoting their event for the Cultural Night. They presented this song in the cafeteria. When i passed by cafeteria, I heard the lyric quite meaningful and nice to hear.. After few days, he sent me this song. However i saw the title of song quite "simple"..(in other word, can say is "too traditional")..After he explained to me, I only realized that it is the song i want to find it before.. ^^

夜深人静....

2008-07-21T00:21:00.002+08:00

无可否认，在夜深人静，我开始烦和担心。

上个星期，连续的考试跟着来。

有点喘不过气来。

下个星期，考试的成绩也是连续的跟着来。

他和她

2008-07-12T11:40:00.002+08:00

一个月，

说长不长说短不短，

让我们俩经历过。

风风雨雨....

我们经历了。

感谢一直以来的关怀。

感谢一直以来的帮忙。

感谢一直以来的安慰。

感谢一直以来得快乐。

不好意思...

经常带来的麻烦。

经常带来的痛苦。

经常带来的紧张。

经常带来的伤心。

未来的日子还长。

珍惜现在.....

我会很乖的。

2008-07-06T17:55:00.004+08:00

I will be a good girl dee..

I am always scolded by my mum and him..

hehehe..

Who asked me late to sleep..???

Late to sleep is not a main problem..

The main problem is I sleep late and cause I sick and get fever..

The pressure and stress life in Year 2 Sem 1 is still on..

At least nowadays my stress and pressure are reduced half.. and shared by another one.. :D

What I always say : How suffer and hard life, i have been before..

So i must be a good good girl..They will not have reason to scolde me lor..hehehe :P

毒

2008-07-05T11:09:00.003+08:00

我发现我中了毒。

这种毒就常在他要回家乡前产生的。

害怕，心情五杂六味。。

就连作梦也被惊醒了。

无法形容的心情。

“虽然留点空间不见面，

反而能够拉紧彼此的心。”

Mungkin Bila~~

2008-06-29T11:31:00.003+08:00

Mungkin bila Nanti, Kita dapat jumpa lagi...
现是各分东西的时机。
中六的朋友，再见了。
不知何时我们能在见面了。
前天，收到一个我和他有之前有误会的朋友的讯息。
我心里觉得有点安慰些。
讯息是关于他要离开而去个陌生的地方读书。
至少他有心的把讯息传给我。
再见咯！！

要我怎么样？？

2008-06-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

不想的事情已经发生了。
我不懂应该怎样面对？？
很想再次的痛哭一场，但不想再让他看见我痛苦的样子。
很想麻醉自己不让自己再去想。
但忙碌和压力的生活不得让我不去想。
对，我应该面对事实。
但事实都是很残忍的。
想要得到我想分享我的快乐的人的认同，但答案偏偏不是我想要的。
我真的很想.....
很想证实我们，
发现我是脆弱的。
开始有点崩溃......

一个星期

2008-06-21T01:39:00.004+08:00

一个星期就这样的过了。
平平淡淡的日子也开始了吵吵闹闹和打打骂骂的日子。
依赖慢慢变成了习惯。
顿时的改变，我无法适应。
无法掩饰自己的情感。
再次的哭了。
第一次感受到又哭又笑的感觉。
很难受！！
疯疯癫癫地他弄得我懂要哭还是要笑。
一个星期的时间，
我开始更加更加得注意饮食。
吃的次数也开始的变多。
实现了想要去的地方，想要吃的东西，想要做想要做的东西。
忘了自己不再是一个人。
有时会想为什么：为什么要打给他，为什么要等他...等等

终于要认真地重新的.......。
功课还是我担心的..... >.<

笨蛋

2008-06-18T12:10:00.002+08:00

笨蛋-林俊杰&金莎歌词

笨蛋(林俊杰/金莎)
很多时候我因为怕受伤，所以就选择先放弃。我更因为我太爱自由，所以明明渴望爱情，却依然不知怎样让别人进入我的世界。
难道，我不能给你百分百的信心吗？你知道，我一直有多在乎你。
我珍惜这份安全感，却担心他的牺牲。所以每天的感觉还是孤独的。我还是需要一个人，一个人想一想。

冰箱结霜咖啡滚烫煮不好最简单的早餐......
我的生活是一团混乱维持单身感觉茫然......
喜不喜欢习不习惯我总是说不出个答案......
一个人来又一个人往怎么让他流连忘返......

我不想当笨蛋 我在墙上写满渴望......
我可以大哭一场 房间还是空空荡荡......
我绝对不逞强该属于我任其自然......
可是我也要安全感..在某个适当程度的主张......
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

这段日子你真的过的好吗？
没有你的早晨，加了糖的咖啡，也是苦的。
当时我尊重你的要求，所以我离开。但，这段日子你不开心，
所以我就回来了。
也许，我连自己要什么我也不知道。我一个人，游游荡荡。
自由久了，也没有了目标。梦里醒来，发现墙上已经不自觉写满了你的名字。
单身，是茫然。恋爱，也彷徨。我明白，所以我用时间去证明了这颗心。不会因为你曾经的放弃而改变。

每个早上都想赖床没有梦是最让人沮丧......
我的眼睛盯着天花板也跑不出任何对象......
我不想当笨蛋我在墙上写满渴望......
我可以大哭一场房间还是空空荡荡......
我绝对不逞强该属于我任其自然......
可是我也要安全感..在某个适当程度的主张......
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

难道我真的是个笨蛋？一直错过已经在身边的幸福。
我们只是用时间找到了我们需要什么。让我们认识了自己，也肯定了对方。
因为你，让我知道真正的幸福是什么。

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女孩别哭

2008-06-15T14:10:00.004+08:00

女孩别哭。

“女孩别哭，有什么难过对我说；

女孩别哭，我不愿看见你泪流”

我不再想要哭了。

第一次，在他的面前哭。

也就在当儿开始了我们的路程。

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谢谢一直以来的陪伴。

很想时间就停在此刻。

开始的我，很害怕无法面对他和将来。

希望一切都是的那么顺利~~~

See around and Appreriate what we ALREAD have;

than to sign on what MAY have-

* Cant deny that girl's weakness is EAR..

Current Status

2008-06-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

Life is full of uncertainty and unexpected..
It is really happened on me..
I dont know why and when it is happened..
The feeling is just like that..
Need to appreciate it a lot..:)
Past: In the wrong time meet with right person.
Current: In the right time meet with right person...??
I really hope so..
Phobia..Hope i can get rid it..

端午节

2008-06-06T17:50:00.003+08:00

明天就是端午节。

想要吃粽子....但没得吃。

今年已是第二年没有度过端午节吃粽子的日子了。

其实在前几年的端午节没有特别的庆祝。

虽然赛龙舟年年都有在槟城举办，但我还是没有亲自体验现场的感觉。

开始了....

开始了想家了。

前镇子，太忙了。没有时间让我喘下来。

昨天晚上，为了一份实验报告。通宵到了三点。

是我第一次搞到那么晚。

有时发现，我静下来就开始胡适乱想。

发白日梦会好过胡适乱想。

弄得好像很多事情在我脑海里。

渐渐地，有点喘不过来。

很想找个庇护所。

常被看为“温室里的小花”的我，很里所当然那个地方会是爸爸妈妈那里。

〈想见你〉〈爸爸妈妈〉......

近来如何？

2008-06-04T20:33:00.003+08:00

真的搞不懂最近的心情。
发疯就发疯，静的时候就开始闹情绪。
不想寻找真正的原因。
有时不懂为什么，自己提不起精力来和别人吵吵闹闹。
很感觉不像我的作风。
其实减少和别人吵吵闹闹是件好事。
天生不适合和别人怄气，但还是爱那么做。
开始学习除去暴躁脾气...
有点怀疑自己的能力。

中学的记忆

2008-06-04T18:45:00.009+08:00

沉静下来..开始对中学时代有点怀念。
经常都在班上闹事。哈哈哈哈。。

虽然是办公室和校长室的常客，但不致以说是坏孩子。

成为办公室和校长室的常客，原因是我们的老师有的是副校长等等。。

这是中五拍的班照。（2005）

还记得班主任曾经对我说过的一句话。

他对我说：“淑雯，是全班里最好欺负的一个。你作弄她，她还会笑笑回应你。”

唉呀，什么呀！！原来我在老师的眼中是那样的。

哈哈..其实班主任有时不时地被我欺负。经常向他取他座上的东西，从金鱼到鱼缸...

他也任我拿。平常没事做就跑到老师的座位八卦。

免不了，遇到课业的压力和老师班上的压力，那里是我的庇护所。*有点想念那样的日子*

它也是spot check 隐藏违经品处。

友谊部分：

*2005 同学会。

人数最齐的一年！ =）

*2006 同学会

>.< 那次的同学会，我无法出席。

*2007 同学会

=）还是那么搞笑的他们。

2008 呢？？

已主办了。

地点：Mc D..

主办了后，得到很多回音。

是好事还是坏事呢？？

那些回音都是反面的。。

结果，我们的关系开始有点僵硬了。

主办当局是包括了我。

2009，还有希望的再举办吗??

终于！！

2008-06-01T12:06:00.004+08:00

终于我能上网了。还不习新电脑的功能。也很讨厌它，因为我须自己install programme。前一个电脑有我哥哥帮我弄好一切一切的programme。虽然他帮我弄了，说实在的，我不懂要怎样用，用来做什么。我这种粗鲁人，就算了吧！！就希望一切都很好。

胃痛了一个晚上，还以为自己可以迟醒多一点。那里知道还是逃不过迟睡的“惩罚”！！最后的我还是关机的继续的睡。。。哈哈哈！！

昨天晚上，不能睡。所以开陈颖见的《熬夜》边听边打部落格。

在假期时，疯狂的寻找陈颖见的《熬夜》。终于让我找到了。那首歌的确是首很久的歌。
疯狂的寻找它的原因是要寻找当年的回忆。

“一起熬夜，一起准备明天的测验”
是我“明天的测验”，而不是我们“明天的测验”
一直以来不被允许熬夜的。很大的原因是自己的体力。但我偏喜欢跟人家做反。。（这是叛逆的一种）哈哈..没有呀！！我也明白别人对我的苦心。谁叫我一至做些不放心的事。其实我也不想的啊！！可能我的原则是要把一切都作到最好。虽然如此，那样做有时真的很累。

不想再写了。*看着没有多功能的电脑，开始不想理它了*

很潇洒的辅导别人别担心太多，实际上的自己却在担心。

2008-05-05T14:10:00.003+08:00

Holiday now..
Is that good for me??
I din feel so..
My dekstop got big problem and my printer got problem too due to paper jam..
What the "......"??
So cham yarr...
Industrial training also one of headache thg i need to..
Conclude that, i have many things to do in my sem break..
I am bored at all..at Setapak
Not internet and computer after exam..*As I am using my housemate pc*
I bec Pg 2molo..
Dont think so much..
Troublesome!!!!!!!
Moodless!!
很潇洒的辅导别人别担心太多，实际上的自己却在担心。

now

2008-04-22T14:52:00.003+08:00

Aiyaaah..
My pc got problem..
Now is no internet and no computer life..
Others said: is good for me to concentrate for my Final Exam..
hehehe..ya...may be but i have no ENTERTAINMENT at all arr..
Ok lah..i wanna do my important stuff

为什么会那样呢？

2008-04-16T10:41:00.003+08:00

很苦恼，有点崩溃。
听了他们所跟我讲的话，前后有点矛盾。
开始怀疑他们讲的话的真实性。
原本的他们就是那样的吗？？
我想是吧！！
很不想会是那样。。
虽然认识的时间并不长。
忍受不了他们！！

苦读的我。

2008-04-15T20:42:00.002+08:00

这几天我都很辛苦。。
有点压力但不懂压力是从哪里呀？？
开始患上嗜食症。
一直很想吃东西。。
并且又患上了嗜睡症。。
看书看每两下就想睡了。
救命啊！！
这样下去还得了吗？？
我知道再苦的日子，我都熬过了。
现在的我应该继续加油。。
就像我的辅导朋友所说的：我是vien呀！！
没什么事难不了我。
我就应该撑下去。。

Hero

2008-04-14T22:01:00.004+08:00

Mariah Carey-Hero

There's a hero

If you look inside your heart

You don't have to be afraid

of what you are

There's an answer

If you reach into your soul

And sorrow that you know

Will melt away

And then a hero comes along

And you cast your FEARS aside

And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

It's a long road

When you face the world alone

No one reaches out a hand

For you to hold

You can find Love

If you search within yourself

and the emptiness you felt

will disappear

?!?!?!?!??!

2008-04-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

Hate!!!!!!
Stupid AniMAls..
SO many Struture..
Some more so many phylum, subphylum pula and CLASSESSSSSSSS...
Digusting when see the photo...
STupid when study arr.......
Ecology pula..
HaTE@@..
The date near to the test..
the more i hate them!!!
?!?!??!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

last week of sem 2

2008-04-07T22:17:00.002+08:00

The last week of Sem 2..
It is a heart attack week for me.
The reason is many coursework marks, we will get to know ..
Sad..
Terrible..
and Worry..
2 more weeks, the final exam is coming.
Some more, our biodiversity and concept of ecology test 2 and lab test 2 fall on this friday.
Aiyyah, last day of week 14...
@@
ok yar..stop here..
Scare and scare..
be calm and calm..
Looking forward to 2nd May which is the last day of final exam..
and i am going to back penang lor..
hahahhahaha
My 2nd eldest brother owe me 1 meal (actually is my request dee..)
Just celebrate his achievement mah..
Gambateh..

激励话

2008-04-02T16:07:00.001+08:00

遇到困难当磨练，

面对问题当考验。

天气。

2008-03-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

不懂自己在搞什么。。
可能是搞清楚自己想要的东西了吧。。
现在的我慢慢的转回了晴天。
时间。。真的我需要的是它。
和妈妈通了20分钟的电话，我发现我得到了我要的答案了。
我。。真得有点想太多。
希望我的天空一直还会是晴天的。
原来下雨天的气候不是太适合我了。

事实

2008-03-30T08:38:00.000+08:00

如何把“事实”成了习惯？？
面临了太多事实。。
一连三得接着下来。。
很喘。。
透不过气来。。
我不想，一直都不想。。
近来，我一直做我不想做的事情。。
来到新的环境，使得我的情绪不稳定。
开始后悔了选择这新的环境。
开始担心床的摆设，书桌的位置。
开始担心做了一些会让别人感到不高兴或不满的事..
第一天开始新环境的我，竟然无法坐定和专心。
对我来说，舒服和轻松的生活习惯最重要。
现在的我很想我的家人。应该说我想家了，而是很渴望那种感觉。
但我很怕听到妈妈的声音。很怕再次让她听到另一端的我哭泣的声音。

Sob-ing....

2008-03-27T12:57:00.000+08:00

Just finished my math test 2..
Supposingly i should happy..
But my status now is totally opposite..
I really SAD and SAD..
The feeling now pain than STOMACH-ACHE or gastric..
---Crying------
I really dont wish ..dont wish..
Math for me is most important subject..
I dont give high expectation in my Biology and english language,
because i Know how i study hard..is the same,but i still struggle to study..
Only this sem has math subject can help me in my result..
How i know...I really hate hate hate..
My mum told me before if i can't continue my study in UTAR , i can study in other U..
I know that are the words to console me..
But for me, is a stress!!
I dont want ...
------crying---------
I know stress in study is just a minor stuff compare to working in reality world...
I know i shouldn't cry..
It will harm myself...
Try to hidden my feeling..But i cant hidden my feeling..
It is a torturing ways...

week 11

2008-03-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

Today is friday of week 11..
It is almost end of the week 11..
Done 2 presentation but...
i still have 2 test .They are properties of Matter (Chemistry) and Ancillary Statistic(Math) ..
Properties of Matter test was postponed from week 10 to week 11 and then now from saturday of week 12 postponed to MONDAY of week 12..What the "tut"..Really stupid..
I really no enough time to prepare yar..
Today lecturer just changed the time to MONDAY..
Tomorrow i still need to go to become helper of 19th Intervarsity Biochemistry Seminar..
I think it is really a tiring job dee..
It is located in PJ campus dee..
6:30am need to arrive at Setapak campus SA block..
Wat?? so early...
Next week, i am going to move and also change my lifestyle also..
A bit worry about...
Hope everything will be fine..

Homesick!!---Try to forget it...

2008-03-16T11:24:00.000+08:00

Struggling and suffering..
See my brother at hometown and i still need to crack my head for my presentations.
Start to regret...
Last time, my parents and grandpa asked me to study in MMU in order to they can take care of me..
If i study in MMU, i will have same holiday like them so ..i would feel any homesick when he back hometown...

Torturing..
Now what i can do...
Except crying...I really dont know what can i do..
Is stupid way to release tension..

first time---....-----

2008-03-16T01:05:00.000+08:00

My first time :
To play Manjung (when the time Ms Leong and Mr Chia came to visit)
To play snooker (if my parents know their daughter went to play snooker, i dont know what is their reaction.)
Got such loaded work to do but still went to play snooker (the place in my perception that naughty and ganster only will go)
*Should I thanks Gandpa, uncle n fisherman gave me chance to learn snooker (pool) ???
Should I??*

Dont know next time, i back penang and request for playing manjung and snooker.
Couldn't imagine how my family response..
I think still ok gua..
Dont know arr..

I didn't do any bad thing yar..
As long as i still can arrange the time for studying, it is enough..
This few week, it is really a full of stress and tension week..
2 presentations (those are my Achilles heel.) and 1 properties of Matter the only test.

is time to sleep but cant sleep because i still cant find the stupid oil palm trees.
Haaiiz...supposingly i can get the photos without search thru Google image search..
How i know my brother copy wrong photos for me..
Those pictures that he copied for me, are the machine for production of palm oil and fibre..
I dont want to request more..
Since he just reached penang, i required him to help me go to the company to copy the photos..
Pity him..no sleep whole night due to whole night at bus..

Ya hor..I am trying to upload my birthday video at here...But failed..
because i need to upload to Youtube first then only copy the link at here..
However, i dont want my shameful video spread to others..
Argh...

Just feel bored and unsatisfy

2008-03-01T01:40:00.000+08:00

Get lost and get lost..
Feel unhappy with what face now..
Contrast thinking between internal and external..
Hope everything will be fine ..

Just come and say hi

2008-02-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

Starting a new..
Everything ll be memory after a long time..
Memory fOr me..--Vien--